《安妮日记》第86章

nd　a　letter　from　opekta。　mr。　kleimans　hoping　his　stomach　will　be　operated　on　soon。　starting　at　eleven　last　night；　all　private　phones　were　cut　off。
yours；　anne　
m。　frank
friday；　june　23；　1944
dearest　kitty；
nothing　special　going　on　here。　the　british　have　begun　their　all…out　attack　on　cherbourg。　according　to　pim　and　mr。　van　oaan；　were　sure　to　be　liberated　before　october　10。　the　russians　are　taking　part　in　the　cam…　paign；　yesterday　they　started　their　offensive　near　vitebsk；　exactly　three　years　to　the　day　that　the　germans　invaded　russia。
beps　spirits　have　sunk　lower　than　ever。　were　nearly　out　of　potatoes；　from　now　on；　were　going　to　count　them　out　for　each　person；　then　everyone　can　do　what　they　want　with　them。　starting　monday；　mieps　taking　a　week　of　vacation。　mr。　kleimans　doctors　havent　found　anything　on　the　x　rays。　hes　torn　between　having　an　operation　and　letting　matters　take　their　course。
yours；　anne　
m。　frank
tuesday；　june　27；　1944
my　dearest　kitty；
the　mood　has　changed；　everythings　going　enormously　well。　cherbourg；　vitebsk　and　zhlobin　fell　today。　theyre　sure　to　have　captured　lots　of　men　and　equipment。　five　german　generals　were　killed　near　cherbourg　and　two　taken　captive。　now　that　theyve　got　a　harbor；　the　british　can　bring　whatever　they　want　on　shore。　the　whole　cotentin　peninsula　has　been　captured　just　three　weeks　after　the　invasion！　what　a　feat！
in　the　three　weeks　since　d　day　there　hasnt　been　a　day　without　rain　and　storms；　neither　here　nor　in　france；　but　this　bad　luck　hasnt　kept　the　british　and　the　americans　from　displaying　their　might。　and　how！　of　course；　the　germans　have　launched　their　wonder　weapon；　but　a　little　firecracker　like　that　wont　hardly　make　a　dent；　except　maybe　minor　damage　in　england　and　screaming　headlines　in　the　kraut　newspapers。
anyway；　when　they　realize　in　〃krautland〃　that　the　bolsheviks　really　are　getting　closer；　theyll　be　shaking　in　their　boots。
all　german　women　who　arent　working　for　the　military　are　being　evacuated；　together　with　their　children；　from　the　coastal　regions　to　the　provinces　of　groningen；　friesland　and　gelderland。　mussert　＇　the　leader　of　the　dutch　national　socialist　（nazi）　party＇　has　announced　that　if　the　invasion　reaches　holland；　hell　enlist。　is　that　fat　pig　planning　to　fight？　he　could　have　done　that　in　russia　long　before　now。　finland　turned　down　a　peace　offer　some　time　ago；　and　now　the　negotiations　have　been　broken　off　again。
those　numbskulls；　theyll　be　sorry！
how　far　do　you　think　well　be　on　july　27？
yours；　anne　
m。　frank
friday；　june　30；　1944
dearest　kitty；
bad　weather　from　one　at　a　stretch　to　the　thirty　june　＇annes　english。＇　dont　i　say　that　well？　oh　yes；　i　already　know　a　little　english；　just　to　prove　it　im　reading　an　ideal　husband　with　the　help　of　a　dictionary！　wars　going　wonderfully：　bobruysk；　mogilev　and　orsha　have　fallen；　lots　of　prisoners。
everythings　all　right　here。　spirits　are　improving；　our　superoptimists　are　triumphant；　the　van　daans　are　doing　disappearing　acts　with　the　sugar；　bep　s　changed　her　hair；　and　miep　has　a　week　off。　thats　the　latest　news！
ive　been　having　really　ghastly　root…canal　work　done　on　one　of　my　front　teeth。　its　been　terribly　painful。　it　was　so　bad　dussel　thought　i　was　going　to　faint；　and　i　nearly　did。　mrs。　van　d。　promptly　got　a　toothache　as　well！
yours；　anne　
m。　frank
p。s。　weve　heard　from　basel　that　bernd　＇cousin　bernhard　（buddy）　elias＇。　played　the　part　of　the　innkeeper　in　minna　von　barnhelm。　he　has　〃artistic　leanings；〃　says　mother。
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JULY；　1944
生？
thursday；　july　6；　1944
dearest　kitty；
my　blood　runs　cold　when　peter　talks　about　being　a　criminal　or　a　speculator；　of　course；　hes　joking；　but　i　still　have　the　feeling　hes　afraid　of　his　own　weakness。
margot　and　peter　are　always　saying　to　me；　〃if　i　had　your　spunk　and　your　strength；　if　i　had　your　drive　and　unflagging　energy；　could。　。　。
is　it　really　such　an　admirable　trait　not　to　let　myself　be　influenced　by　others？　am　i　right　in　following　my　own　conscience？
to　be　honest；　i　cant　imagine　how　anyone　could　say　〃im　weak〃　and　then　stay　that　way。　if　you　know　that　about　yourself；　why　not　fight　it；　why　not　develop　your　character？　their　answer　has　always　been：　〃because　its　much　easier　not　to！〃　this　reply　leaves　me　feeling　rather　discouraged。　easy？　does　that　mean　a　life　of　deceit　and　laziness　is　easy　too？　oh　no；　that　cant　be　true。　it　cant　be　true　that　people　are　so　readily　tempted　by　ease。　。　。　and　money。　ive　given　a　lot　of　thought　to　what　my　answer　should　be；　to　how　i　should　get　peter　to　believe　in　himself　and；　most　of　all；　to　change　himself　for　the　better。　i　dont　know　whether　im　on　the　right　track。
ive　often　imagined　how　nice　it　would　be　if　someone　were　to　confide　everything　to　me。　but　now　that　its　reached　that　point；　i　realize　how　difficult　it　is　to　put　yourself　in　someope　elses　shoes　and　find　the　right　answer。　especially　since　〃easy〃　and　〃money”
are　new　and　…　pletely　alien　concepts　to　me。
peters　beginning　to　lean　on　me　and　i　dont　want　that；　not　under　any　circumstances。
its　hard　enough　standing　on　your　own　two　feet；　but　when　you　also　have　to　remain　true　to　your　character　and　soul；　its　harder　still。
ive　been　drifting　around　at　sea；　have　spent　days　searching　for　an　effective　antidote　to　that　terrible　word　〃easy。〃　how　can　i　make　it　clear　to　him　that；　while　it　may　seem　easy　and　wonderful；　it　will　drag　him　down　to　the　depths；　to　a　place　where　hell　no　longer　find　friends；　support　or　beauty；　so　far　down　that　he　may　never　rise　to　the　surface　again？
were　all　alive；　but　we　dont　know　why　or　what　for；　were　all　searching　for　happiness；
were　all　leading　lives　that　are　different　and　yet　the　same。　we　three　have　been　raised　in　good　famthes；　we　have　the　opportunity　to　get　an　education　and　make　something　of　ourselves。　we　have　many　reasons　to　hope　for　great　happiness；　but。　。　。　we　have　to　earn　it。　and　thats　something　you　cant　achieve　by　taking　the　easy　way　out。　earning　happiness　means　doing　good　and　working；　not　speculating　and　being　lazy。　laziness　may　look　inviting；　but　only　work　gives　you　true　satisfaction。
i　cant　understand　people　who　dont　like　to　work；　but　that　isnt　peters　problem　either。
he　just　doesnt　have　a　goal