《The Last Battle》第35章

e。　not　because　he　and　i　are one；　but　because　we　are　opposites；　i　take　to　me　the　services　which　thou　hast　done　to　him。 for　i　and　he　are　of　such　different　kinds　that　no　service　which　is　vile　can　be　done　to　me； and　none　which　is　not　vile　can　be　done　to　him。　therefore　if　any　man　swear　by　tash　and　keep his　oath　for　the　oaths　sake；　it　is　by　me　that　he　has　truly　sworn；　though　he　know　it　not； and　it　is　i　who　reward　him。　and　if　any　man　do　a　cruelty　in　my　name；　then；　though　he　says the　name　aslan；　it　is　tash　whom　he　serves　and　by　tash　his　deed　is　accepted。　dost thou　understand；　child？　i　said；　lord；　thou　knowest　how　much　i　understand。　but　i　said　also （for　the　truth　constrained　me）；　yet　i　have　been　seeking　tash　all　my　days。　beloved；　said the　glorious　one；　unless　thy　desire　had　been　for　me　thou　wouldst　not　have　sought　so　long and　so　truly。
for　all　find　what　they　truly　seek。
〃then　he　breathed　upon　me　and　took　away　the　trembling　from　my　limbs　and caused　me　to　stand　upon　my　feet。　and　after　that；　he　said　not　much；　but　that　we　should meet　again；　and　i　must　go　further　up　and　further　in。　then　he　turned　him　about　in　a storm　and　flurry　of　gold　and　was　gone　suddenly。
〃and　since　then；　o　kings　and　ladies；　i　have　been　wandering　to　find　him　and my　happiness　is　so　great　that　it　even　weakens　me　like　a　wound。　and　this　is　the marvel　of　marvels；　that　he　called　me　beloved；　me　who　am　but　as　a　dog　…”
〃eh？　whats　that？〃　said　one　of　the　dogs。
〃sir；〃　said　emeth。　〃it　is　but　a　fashion　of　speech　which　we　have　in calormen。”
〃well；　i　cant　say　its　one　i　like　very　much；〃　said　the　dog。
〃he　doesnt　mean　any　harm；〃　said　an　older　dog。
〃after　all；　we　call　our　puppies　boys　when　they　dont　behave　properly。”
〃so　we　do；〃　said　the　first　dog。　〃or　girls。”
〃s…s…sh！〃　said　the　old　dog。　〃thats　not　a　nice　word　to　use。　remember　where you　are。”
〃look！〃　said　jill　suddenly。　someone　was　ing；　rather　timidly；　to　meet them；　a　graceful　creature　on　four　feet；　all　silvery…grey。　and　they　stared　at　him　for　a　whole ten　seconds　before　five　or　six　voices　said　all　at　once；　〃why；　its　old　puzzle！〃　they had　never　seen　him　by　daylight　with　the　lion…skin　off；　and　it　made　an　extraordinary difference。　he　was　himself　now：　a　beautiful　donkey　with　such　a　soft；　grey　coat　and　such　a gentle；　honest　face
that　if　you　had　seen　him　you　would　have　done　just　what　jill　and　lucy　did　… rushed　forward　and　put　your　arms　round　his　neck　and　kissed　his　nose　and　stroked his　ears。
when　they　asked　him　where　he　had　been　he　said　he　had　e　in　at　the　door along　with　all　the　other　creatures　but　he　had　…　well；　to　tell　the　truth；　he　had　been keeping　out　of　their　way　as　much　as　he　could；　and　out　of　aslans　way。　for　the　sight　of　the　real lion　had　made　him　so　ashamed　of　all　that　nonsense　about　dressing　up　in　a　lion…skin　that he　did　not　know　how　to　look　anyone　in　the　face。　but　when　he　saw　that　all　his　friends　were going　away　westward；　and　after　he　had　had　a　mouthful　of　grass　（〃and　ive　never　tasted such　good　grass　in　my　life；〃　said　puzzle）；　he　plucked　up　his　courage　and　followed。 〃but　what　ill　do　if　i　really　have　to　meet　aslan；　im　sure　i　dont　know；〃　he　added。
〃youll　find　it　will　be　all　right　when　you　really　do；〃　said　queen　lucy。
then　they　went　forward　together；　always　westward；　for　that　seemed　to　be　the direction　aslan　had　meant　when　he　cried　out；　〃further　up　and　futher　in。〃　many　other creatures　were　slowly　moving　the　same　way；　but　that　grassy　country　was　very　wide　and there　was　no　crowding。
it　still　seemed　to　be　early；　and　the　morning　freshness　was　in　the　air。　they kept　on　stopping　to　look　round　and　to　look　behind　them；　partly　because　it　was　so beautiful　but　partly　also　because　there　was　something　about　it　which　they　could　not understand。
〃peter；〃　said　lucy；　〃where　is　this；　do　you　suppose？”
〃i　dont　know；〃　said　the　high　king。　〃it　reminds　me　of　somewhere　but　i　cant give　it　a　name。　could　it　be　somewhere　we　once　stayed　for　a　holiday　when　we　were　very； very　small？”
〃it　would　have　to　have　been　a　jolly　good　holiday；〃　said　eustace。　〃i　bet there　isnt　a　country　like　this　anywhere　in　our　world。　look　at　the　colours！　you　couldnt get　a　blue　like　the　blue　on　those　mountains　in　our　world。”
〃is　it　not　aslans　country？〃　said　tirian。
〃not　like　aslans　country　on　top　of　that　mountain　beyond　the　eastern　end　of the　world；”
said　jill。　〃ive　been　there。”
〃if　you　ask　me；〃　said　edmund；　〃its　like　somewhere　in　the　narnian　world。 look　at　those　mountains　ahead　…　and　the　big　ice…mountains　beyond　them。　surely　theyre rather　like　the　mountains　we　used　to　see　from　narnia；　the　ones　up　westward　beyond　the waterfall？”
〃yes；　so　they　are；〃　said　peter。　〃only　these　are　bigger。”
〃i　dont　think　those　ones　are　so　very　like　anything　in　narnia；〃　said　lucy。 〃but　look　there。”
she　pointed　southward　to　their　left；　and　everyone　stopped　and　turned　to look。　〃those
hills；〃　said　lucy；　〃the　nice　woody　ones　and　the　blue　ones　behind　…　arent they　very　like　the　southern　border　of　narnia？”
〃like！〃　cried　edmund　after　a　moments　silence。　〃why；　theyre　exactly　like。 look；　theres　mount　pire　with　his　forked　head；　and　theres　the　pass　into　archenland　and everything！”
〃and　yet　theyre　not　like；〃　said　lucy。　〃theyre　different。　they　have　more colours　on　them　and　they　look　further　away　than　i　remembered　and　theyre　more　。。　。　more　。　。 。　oh；　i　dont　know。。。”
〃more　like　the　real　thing；〃　said　the　lord　digory　softly。
suddenly　farsight　the　eagle　spread　his　wings；　soared　thirty　or　forty　feet up　into　the　air；　circled　round　and　then　alighted　on　the　ground。
〃kings　and　queens；〃　he　cried；　〃we　have　all　been　blind。　we　are　only beginning　to　see　where　we　are。　from　up　there　i　have　seen　it　all　…　ettinsmuir；　beaversdam； the　great　river；　and　cair　paravel　still　shining　on　the　edge　of　the　eastern　sea。　narnia　is not　dead。　this　is　narnia。”
〃but　how　can　it　be？〃　said　peter。　〃for　aslan　told　us　older　ones　that　we should　never　return　to　narnia；　and　here　we　are。”
〃yes；〃　said　eustace。　〃and　we　saw　it　all　destroyed　and　the　sun　put　out。”
〃and　its　all　so　different；〃　said　lucy。
〃the　eagle　is　right；〃　said　the　lord　digory。　〃listen；　peter。　when　aslan　said you　could　never　go　back　to　n