《Paradise Lost Ⅹ》第7章

the　miserie；　i　deservd　it；　and　would　beare
my　own　deservings；　but　this　will　not　serve；
all　that　i　eat　or　drink；　or　shall　beget；
is　propagated　curse。　o　voice　once　heard
delightfully；　encrease　and　multiply；　＇　730　＇
now　death　to　hear！　for　what　can　i　encrease
or　multiplie；　but　curses　on　my　head？
who　of　all　ages　to　succeed；　but　feeling
the　evil　on　him　brought　by　me；　will　curse
my　head；　ill　fare　our　ancestor　impure；　＇　735　＇
for　this　we　may　thank　adam；　but　his　thanks
shall　be　the　execration；　so　besides
mine　own　that　bide　upon　me；　all　from　mee
shall　with　a　fierce　reflux　on　mee　redound；
on　mee　as　on　thir　natural　center　light　＇　740　＇
heavie；　though　in　thir　place。　o　fleeting　joyes
of　paradise；　deare　bought　with　lasting　woes！
did　i　request　thee；　maker；　from　my　clay
to　mould　me　man；　did　i　sollicite　thee
from　darkness　to　promote　me；　or　here　place　＇　745　＇
in　this　delicious　garden？　as　my　will
concurd　not　to　my　being；　it　were　but　right
and　equal　to　reduce　me　to　my　dust；
desirous　to　resigne；　and　render　back
all　i　receavd；　unable　to　performe　＇　750　＇
thy　terms　too　hard；　by　which　i　was　to　hold
the　good　i　sought　not。　to　the　loss　of　that；
sufficient　penaltie；　why　hast　thou　added
the　sense　of　endless　woes？　inexplicable
thy　justice　seems；　yet　to　say　truth；　too　late；　＇　755　＇
i　thus　contest；　then　should　have　been　refusd
those　terms　whatever；　when　they　were　proposd：
thou　didst　accept　them；　wilt　thou　enjoy　the　good；
then　cavil　the　conditions？　and　though　god
made　thee　without　thy　leave；　what　if　thy　son　＇　760　＇
prove　disobedient；　and　reprovd；　retort；
wherefore　didst　thou　beget　me？　i　sought　it　not
wouldst　thou　admit　for　his　contempt　of　thee
that　proud　excuse？　yet　him　not　thy　election；
but　natural　necessity　begot。　＇　765　＇
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Paradise　Lost　Ⅹ18
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god　made　thee　of　choice　his　own；　and　of　his　own
to　serve　him；　thy　reward　was　of　his　grace；
thy　punishment　then　justly　is　at　his　will。
be　it　so；　for　i　submit；　his　doom　is　fair；
that　dust　i　am；　and　shall　to　dust　returne：　＇　770　＇
o　wel　hour　whenever！　why　delayes
his　hand　to　execute　what　his　decree
fixd　on　this　day？　why　do　i　overlive；
why　am　i　mockt　with　death；　and　lengthnd　out
to　deathless　pain？　how　gladly　would　i　meet　＇　775　＇
mortalitie　my　sentence；　and　be　earth
insensible；　how　glad　would　lay　me　down
as　in　my　mothers　lap！　there　i　should　rest
and　sleep　secure；　his　dreadful　voice　no　more
would　thunder　in　my　ears；　no　fear　of　worse　＇　780　＇
to　mee　and　to　my　ofspring　would　torment　me
with　cruel　expectation。　yet　one　doubt
pursues　me　still；　least　all　i　cannot　die；
least　that　pure　breath　of　life；　the　spirit　of　man
which　god　inspird；　cannot　together　perish　＇　785　＇
with　this　corporeal　clod；　then　in　the　grave；
or　in　some　other　dismal　place　who　knows
but　i　shall　die　a　living　death？　o　thought
horrid；　if　true！　yet　why？　it　was　but　breath
of　life　that　sinnd；　what　dies　but　what　had　life　＇　790　＇
and　sin？　the　bodie　properly　hath　neither。
all　of　me　then　shall　die：　let　this　appease
the　doubt；　since　humane　reach　no　further　knows。
for　though　the　lord　of　all　be　infinite；
is　his　wrauth　also？　be　it；　man　is　not　so；　＇　795　＇
but　mortal　doomd。　how　can　he　exercise
wrath　without　end　on　man　whom　death　must　end？
can　he　make　deathless　death？　that　were　to　make
strange　contradiction；　which　to　god　himself
impossible　is　held；　as　argument　＇　800　＇
of　weakness；　not　of　power。　will　he；　draw　out；
for　angers　sake；　finite　to　infinite
in　punisht　man；　to　satisfie　his　rigour
satisfid　never；　that　were　to　extend
his　sentence　beyond　dust　and　natures　law；　＇　805　＇
by　which　all　causes　else　according　still
to　the　reception　of　thir　matter　act；
not　to　th　extent　of　thir　own　spheare。　but　say
that　death　be　not　one　stroak；　as　i　supposd；
bereaving　sense；　but　endless　miserie　＇　810　＇
from　this　day　onward；　which　i　feel　begun
both　in　me；　and　without　me；　and　so　last
to　perpetuitie；　ay　me；　that　fear
es　thundring　back　with　dreadful　revolution
on　my　defensless　head；　both　death　and　i　＇　815　＇
am　found　eternal；　and　incorporate　both；
nor　i　on　my　part　single；　in　mee　all
posteritie　stands　curst：　fair　patrimonie
that　i　must　leave　ye；　sons；　o　were　i　able
to　waste　it　all　my　self；　and　leave　ye　none！　＇　820　＇
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so　disinherited　how　would　ye　bless
me　now　your　curse！　ah；　why　should　all　mankind
for　one　mans　fault　thus　guiltless　be　condemnd；
if　guiltless？　but　from　mee　what　can　proceed；
but　all　corrupt；　both　mind　and　will　depravd；　＇　825　＇
not　to　do　onely；　but　to　will　the　same
with　me？　how　can　they　then　acquitted　stand
in　sight　of　god？　him　after　all　disputes
forct　i　absolve：　all　my　evasions　vain
and　reasonings；　though　through　mazes；　lead　me　still　＇　830　＇
but　to　my　own　conviction：　first　and　last
on　mee；　mee　onely；　as　the　sourse　and　spring
of　all　corruption；　all　the　blame　lights　due；
so　might　the　wrauth。　fond　wish！　couldst　thou　support
that　burden　heavier　then　the　earth　to　bear　＇　835　＇
then　all　the　world　much　heavier；　though　divided
with　that　bad　woman？　thus　what　thou　desirst；
and　what　thou　fearst；　alike　destroyes　all　hope
of　refuge；　and　concludes　thee　miserable
beyond　all　past　example　and　future；　＇　840　＇
to　satan　only　like　both　crime　and　doom。
o　conscience；　into　what　abyss　of　fears
and　horrors　hast　thou　drivn　me；　out　of　which
i　find　no　way；　from　deep　to　deeper　plungd！
thus　adam　to　himself　lamented　loud　＇　845　＇
through　the　still　night；　not　now；　as　ere　man　fell；
wholsom　and　cool；　and　mild；　but　with　black　air
acpanied；　with　damps　and　dreadful　gloom；
which　to　his　evil　conscience　represented
all　things　with　double　terror：　on　the　ground　＇　850　＇
outstretcht　he　lay；　on　the　cold　ground；　and　oft
cursd　his　creation；　death　as　oft　accusd
of　tardie　execution；　since　denounct
the　day　of　his　offence。　why　es　not　death；
said　hee；　with　one　thrice　acceptable　stroke　＇　855　＇
to　end　me？　shall　truth　fail　to　keep　her　word；
justice　divine　not　hastn　to　be　just？
but　death　es　not　at　call；　justice　divin