《THE AMBER SPYGLASS》第129章

〃witches；〃　said　pantalaimon；　〃and　shamans。　so。。。〃
〃in　leaving　you　both　on　the　shores　of　the　world　of　the　dead；　lyra　and　will　did　something；　without　knowing　it；　that　witches　have　done　since　the　first　time　there　were　witches。　theres　a　region　of　our　north　land；　a　desolate；　abominable　place；　where　a　great　catastrophe　happened　in　the　childhood　of　the　world；　and　where　nothing　has　lived　since。　no　daemons　can　enter　it。　to　bee　a　witch；　a　girl　must　cross　it　alone　and　leave　her　daemon　behind。　you　know　the　suffering　they　must　undergo。
but　having　done　it；　they　find　that　their　daemons　were　not　severed；　as　in　bolvangar；　they　are　still　one　whole　being；　but　now　they　can　roam　free；　and　go　to　far　places　and　see　strange　things　and　bring　back　knowledge。
〃and　you　are　not　severed；　are　you？〃
〃no；〃　said　pantalaimon。　〃we　are　still　one。　but　it　was　so　painful；　and　we　were　so　frightened。。。〃
〃well；〃　said　serafina；　〃the　two　of　them　will　not　fly　like　witches；　and　they　will　not　live　as　long　as　we　do；　but　thanks　to　what　they　did；　you　and　they　are　witch　in　all　but　that。〃
the　two　daemons　considered　the　strangeness　of　this　knowledge。
〃does　that　mean　we　shall　be　birds；　like　witches　daemons？〃　said　pantalaimon。
〃be　patient。〃
〃and　how　can　will　be　a　witch？　i　thought　all　witches　were　female。〃
〃those　two　have　changed　many　things。　we　are　all　learning　new　ways；　even　witches。　but　one　thing　hasnt　changed：　you　must　help　your　humans；　not　hinder　them。　you　must　help　them　and　guide　them　and　encourage　them　toward　wisdom。　thats　what　daemons　are　for。〃
they　were　silent。　serafina　turned　to　the　nightingale　and　said；　〃what　is　your　name？〃
〃i　have　no　name。　i　didnt　know　i　was　born　until　i　was　torn　away　from　his　heart。〃
〃then　i　shall　name　you　kirjava。〃
〃kirjava；〃　said　pantalaimon；　trying　the　sound。　〃what　does　it　mean？〃
〃soon　you　will　see　what　it　means。　but　now；〃　serafina　went　on；　〃you　must　listen　carefully；　because　im　going　to　tell　you　what　you　should　do。〃
〃no；〃　said　kirjava　forcefully。
serafina　said　gently；　〃i　can　hear　from　your　tone　that　you　know　what　im　going　to　say。〃
〃we　dont　want　to　hear　it！〃　said　pantalaimon。
〃its　too　soon；〃　said　the　nightingale。　〃its　much　too　soon。〃
serafina　was　silent；　because　she　agreed　with　them；　and　she　felt　sorrowful。　she　was　the　wisest　one　there；　and　she　had　to　guide　them　to　what　was　right；　but　she　let　their　agitation　subside　before　she　went　on。
〃where　did　you　go；　in　your　wanderings？〃　she　said。
〃through　many　worlds；〃　said　pantalaimon。　〃everywhere　we　found　a　window；　we　went　through。　there　are　more　windows　than　we　thought。〃
〃and　you　saw。。。”
〃yes；〃　said　kirjava；　〃we　looked　closely；　and　we　saw　what　was　happening。〃
〃we　saw　many　other　things。　we　met　an　angel；〃　said　pantalaimon　quickly。　〃and　we　saw　the　world　where　the　little　people　e　from；　the　gallivespians。　there　are　big　people　there；　too；　who　try　and　kill　them。〃
they　told　the　witch　more　of　what　theyd　seen；　and　they　were　trying　to　distract　her；　and　she　knew　it；　but　she　let　them　talk；　because　of　the　love　each　one　had　for　the　others　voice。
but　eventually　they　ran　out　of　things　to　tell　her；　and　they　fell　silent。　the　only　sound　was　the　gentle；　endless　whisper　of　the　leaves；　until　serafina　pekkala　said：
〃you　have　been　keeping　away　from　will　and　lyra　to　punish　them。　i　know　why　youre　doing　that；　my　kaisa　did　just　the　same　after　i　came　through　the　desolate　barrens。　but　he　came　to　me　eventually；　because　we　loved　each　other　still。　and　they　will　need　you　soon　to　help　them　do　what　has　to　be　done　next。　because　you　have　to　tell　them　what　you　know。〃
pantalaimon　cried　aloud；　a　pure；　cold　owl　cry；　a　sound　never　heard　in　that　world　before。　in　nests　and　burrows　for　a　long　way　around；　and　wherever　any　small　night　creature　was　hunting　or　grazing　or　scavenging；　a　new　and　unforgettable　fear　came　into　being。
serafina　watched　from　close　by；　and　felt　nothing　but　passion　until　she　looked　at　wills　daemon；　kirjava　the　nightingale。　she　remembered　talking　to　the　witch　ruta　skadi；　who　had　asked；　after　seeing　will　only　once；　if　serafina　had　looked　into　his　eyes；　and　serafina　had　replied　that　she　had　not　dared　to。　this　little　brown　bird　was　radiating　an　implacable　ferocity　as　palpable　as　heat；　and　serafina　was　afraid　of　it。
finally　pantalaimons　wild　screaming　died　away；　and　kirjava　said：
〃and　we　have　to　tell　them。〃
〃yes；　you　do；〃　said　the　witch　gently。
gradually　the　ferocity　left　the　gaze　of　the　little　brown　bird；　and　serafina　could　look　at　her　again。　she　saw　a　desolate　sadness　in　its　place。
〃there　is　a　ship　ing；〃　serafina　said。　〃i　left　it　to　fly　here　and　find　you。　i　came　with　the　gyptians；　all　the　way　from　our　world。　they　will　be　here　in　another　day　or　so。〃
the　two　birds　sat　close；　and　in　a　moment　they　had　changed　their　forms；　being　two　doves。
serafina　went　on：　〃this　may　be　the　last　time　you　fly。　i　can　see　a　little　ahead；　i　can　see　that　you　will　both　be　able　to　climb　this　high　as　long　as　there　are　trees　this　size；　but　i　think　you　will　not　be　birds　when　your　forms　settle。　take　in　all　that　you　can；　and　remember　it　well。　i　know　that　you　and　lyra　and　will　are　going　to　think　hard　and　painfully；　and　i　know　you　will　make　the　best　choice。　but　it　is　yours　to　make；　and　no　one　elses。〃
they　didnt　speak。　she　took　her　branch　of　cloud…pine　and　lifted　away　from　the　towering　treetops；　circling　high　above；　feeling　on　her　skin　the　coolness　of　the　breeze　and　the　tingle　of　the　starlight　and　the　benevolent　sifting　of　that　dust　she　had　never　seen。
she　flew　down　to　the　village　once　more　and　went　silently　into　the　womans　house。　she　knew　nothing　about　mary　except　that　she　came　from　the　same　world　as　will；　and　that　her　part　in　the　events　was　crucial。　whether　she　was　fierce　or　friendly；　serafina　had　no　way　of　telling；　but　she　had　to　wake　mary　up　without　startling　her；　and　there　was　a　spell　for　that。
she　sat　on　the　floor　at　the　womans　head　and　watched　through　half…closed　eyes；　breathing　in　and　out　in　time　with　her。　presently　her　half…vision　began　to　show　her　the　pale　forms　that　mary　was　seeing　in　her　dreams；　and　she　adjusted　her　mind　to　resonate　with　them；　as　if　she　were　tuning　a　string。　then　with　a　further　effort　serafina　herself　stepped　in　among　them。　on