《5 midnight sun午夜阳光》第65章

him　free　to　attack　again　could　not　be　the　right　thing　either。　The　blond　hostess　from　the　restaurant。　The　waitress　I　d　never　really　looked　at。　Both　had　irritated　me　in　a　trivial　way；　but　that　did　not　mean　they　deserved　to　be　in　danger。　Either　one　of　them　might　be　somebody　s　Bella。　That　realization　decided　me。　I　turned　the　car　north；　accelerating　now　that　I　had　a　purpose。　Whenever　I　had　a　problem　that　was　beyond　me　something　tangible　like　this　I　knew　where　I　could　go　for　help。　Alice　was　sitting　on　the　porch；　waiting　for　me。　I　pulled　to　a　stop　in　front　of　the　house　rather　than　going　around　to　the　garage。　Carlisle　s　in　his　study；　Alice　told　me　before　I　could　ask。　Thank　you；　I　said；　tousling　her　hair　as　I　passed。　Thank　you　for　returning　my　call；　she　thought　sarcastically。　Oh。　I　paused　by　the　door；　pulling　out　my　phone　and　flipping　it　open。　I　didn　t　even　check　to　see　who　it　was。　I　was　busy。　Yeah；　I　know。　I　m　sorry；　too。　were　on　your　way。　It　was　close；　I　murmured。　Sorry；　she　repeated；　ashamed　of　herself。　It　was　easy　to　be　generous；　knowing　that　Bella　was　fine。　Don　t　be。　I　know　you　can　t　catch　everything。　No　one　expects　you　to　be　omniscient；　Alice。　Thanks。　I　almost　asked　you　out　to　dinner　tonight　did　you　catch　that　before　I　changed　my　Sorry。　By　the　time　I　saw　what　was　going　to　happen；　you
mind？　She　grinned。　No；　I　missed　that　one；　too。　Wish　I　d　known。　I　would　have　e。　What　were　you　concentrating　on；　that　you　missed　so　much？　Jasper　s　thinking　about　our　anniversary。　She　laughed。　He　s　trying　not　to　make　a　decision　on　my　gift；　but　I　think　I　have　a　pretty　good　idea　You　re　shameless。　Yep。　She　pursed　her　lips；　and　stared　up　at　me；　a　hint　of　accusation　in　her　expression。　I　paid　better　attention　later。　Are　you　going　to　tell　them　that　she　knows？　I　sighed。　Yes。　Later。　Do　me　a　favor　and　tell　Rosalie　when　I　m　not　around；　okay？　I　won　t　say　anything。　I　flinched。　Sure。　Bella　took　it　pretty　well。　Too　well。　Alice　grinned　at　me。　Don　t　underestimate　Bella。　I　tried　to　block　the　image　I　didn　t　want　to　see　Bella　and　Alice；　best　of　friends。　Impatient　now；　I　sighed　heavily。　I　wanted　to　be　through　with　the　next　part　of　the　evening；　I　wanted　it　over　with。　But　I　was　a　little　worried　to　leave　Forks　Alice　I　began。　She　saw　what　I　was　planning　to　ask。　She　sort　of　needs　She　ll　be　fine　tonight。　I　m　keeping　a　better　watch　now。　twentyfour　hour　supervision；　doesn　t　she？　At　least。　Anyway；　you　ll　be　with　her　soon　enough。　I　took　a　deep　breath。　The　words　were　beautiful　to　me。　Go　on　get　this　done　so　you　can　be　where　you　want　to　be；　she　told　me。　I　nodded；　and　hurried　up　to　Carlisle　s　room。　He　was　waiting　for　me；　his　eyes　on　the　door　rather　than　the　thick　book　on　his　desk。　I　heard　Alice　tell　you　where　to　find　me；　he　said；　and　smiled。　It　was　a　relief　to　be　with　him；　to　see　the　empathy　and　deep　intelligence　in　his　eyes。　Carlisle　would　know　what　to　do。　I　need　help。
Anything；　Edward；　he　promised。　Did　Alice　tell　you　what　happened　to　Bella　tonight？　Almost　happened；　he　amended。　Yes；　almost。　I　ve　got　a　dilemma；　Carlisle。　You　see；　I　want　very　much　to　kill　him。　The　words　started　to　flow　fast　and　passionate。　So　much。　But　I　know　that　would　be　wrong；　because　it　would　be　vengeance；　not　justice。　All　anger；　no　impartiality。　Still；　it　can　t　be　right　to　leave　a　serial　rapist　and　killer　wandering　Port　Angeles！　I　don　t　know　the　humans　there；　but　I　can　t　let　someone　else　take　Bella　s　place　as　his　victim。　Those　other　women　someone　might　feel　about　them　the　way　I　feel　about　Bella。　Might　suffer　what　I　would　have　suffered　if　she　d　been　harmed。　It　s　not　right　His　wide；　unexpected　smile　stopped　the　rush　of　my　words　cold。　She　s　very　good　for　you；　isn　t　she？　impressed。　So　much　passion；　so　much　control。　I　m　I　m　not　looking　for　pliments；　Carlisle。　Of　course　not。　But　I　can　t　help　my　thoughts；　can　I？　He　smiled　again。　I　ll　take　care　of　it。　You　can　rest　easy。　No　one　else　will　be　harmed　in　Bella　s　place。　I　saw　the　plan　in　his　head。　It　wasn　t　exactly　what　I　wanted；　it　did　not　satisfy　my　craving　for　brutality；　but　I　could　see　that　it　was　the　right　thing。　I　ll　show　you　where　to　find　him；　I　said。　Let　s　go。　He　grabbed　his　black　bag　on　the　way。　I　would　have　preferred　a　more　aggressive　form　of　sedation　like　a　cracked　skull　but　I　would　let　Carlisle　do　this　his　way。　We　took　my　car。　Alice　was　still　on　the　steps。　She　grinned　and　waved　as　we　drove　away。　I　saw　that　she　had　looked　ahead　for　me；　we　would　have　no　difficulties。　The　trip　was　very　short　on　the　dark；　empty　road。　I　left　off　my　headlights　to　keep　from　attracting　attention。　It　made　me　smile　to　think　how　Bella　would　have　reacted　to　this　pace。　I　d　already　been　driving　slower　than　usual　to　prolong　my　time　with　her　when　she　d　objected。　Carlisle　was　thinking　of　Bella；　too。　I　didn　t　foresee　that　she　would　be　so　good　for　him。　That　s　unexpected。　Perhaps　this　was　somehow　meant　to　be。　Perhaps　it　serves　a　higher　purpose。　Only　He　pictured　Bella　with　snow　cold　skin　and　blood　red　eyes；　and　then　flinched　away　from　the　image。　Yes。　Only。　Indeed。　so　pure　and　lovely？　Because　how　could　there　be　any　good　in　destroying　something　I　glowered　into　the　night；　all　the　joy　of　the　evening　destroyed　by　his　thoughts。　Edward　deserves　happiness。　He　s　owed　it。　The　fierceness　of　Carlisle　s　thoughts　surprised　me。　There　must　be　a　way。
I　wished　I　could　believe　that　either　one。　But　there　was　no　higher　purpose　to　what　was　happening　to　Bella。　Just　a　vicious　harpy；　an　ugly；　bitter　fate　who　could　not　bear　for　Bella　to　have　the　life　she　deserved。　I　did　not　linger　in　Port　Angeles。　I　took　Carlisle　to　the　dive　where　the　creature　named　Lonnie　was　drowning　his　disappointment　with　his　friends　two　of　whom　had　already　passed　out。　Carlisle　could　see　how　hard　it　was　for　me　to　be　so　close　for　me　to　hear　the　monster　s　thoughts　and　see　his　memories；　memories　of　Bella　mixed　in　with　less　fortunate　girls　who　no　one　could　save　now。　My　breathing　sped。　I　clenched　the　steering　wheel。　I　ll　make　the　rest　of　them　safe。　You　go　back　to　Go；　Edward；　he　told　me　gently。　Bella。　It　was　exactly　the　right　thing　to　say。　could　mean　anything　to　me　now。　Her　name　was　the　only　distraction　that　I　left　him　in　the　car；　and　ran　back　to　Forks　in　a　straight　line　through　the　sleeping　forest。　It　took　less　time　than　the　first　journey　in　the　speeding