《1 twilight暮色》第94章

〃Bella；　Bella；　stop；〃　he　interrupted　me；　his　words　pouring　out　so　quickly　
they　were　hard　to　understand。　〃You"re　worrying　about　all　the　wrong　
things；　Bella。　Trust　me　on　this　—　none　of　us　are　in　jeopardy。　You　are　
under　too　much　strain　as　it　is；　don"t　add　to　it　with　wholly　unnecessary　
worries。　Listen　to　me！〃　he　ordered；　for　I　had　looked　away。　〃Our　family　is　
strong。　Our　only　fear　is　losing　you。〃　
〃But　why　should　you　—〃　
Alice　interrupted　this　time；　touching　my　cheek　with　her　cold　fingers。　
〃It"s　been　almost　a　century　that　Edward"s　been　alone。　Now　he"s　found　you。　
You　can"t　see　the　changes　that　we　see；　we　who　have　been　with　him　for　so　
long。　Do　you　think　any　of　us　want　to　look　into　his　eyes　for　the　next　
hundred　years　if　he　loses　you？〃　
My　guilt　slowly　subsided　as　I　looked　into　her　dark　eyes。　But；　even　as　the　
calm　spread　over　me；　I　knew　I　couldn"t　trust　my　feelings　with　Jasper　
there。　
It　was　a　very　long　day。　
We　stayed　in　the　room。　Alice　called　down　to　the　front　desk　and　asked　them　
to　ignore　our　maid　service　for　now。　The　windows　stayed　shut；　the　TV　on；　
though　no　one　watched　it。　At　regular　intervals；　food　was　delivered　for　
me。　The　silver　phone　resting　on　Alice"s　bag　seemed　to　grow　bigger　as　the　
hours　passed。　
My　babysitters　handled　the　suspense　better　than　I　did。　As　I　fidgeted　and　
paced；　they　simply　grew　more　still；　two　statues　whose　eyes　followed　me　
imperceptibly　as　I　moved。　I　occupied　myself　with　memorizing　the　room；　the　
striped　pattern　of　the　couches；　tan；　peach；　cream；　dull　gold；　and　tan　
again。　Sometimes　I　stared　at　the　abstract　prints；　randomly　finding　
pictures　in　the　shapes；　like　I"d　found　pictures　in　the　clouds　as　a　child。　
I　traced　a　blue　hand；　a　woman　bing　her　hair；　a　cat　stretching。　But　
when　the　pale　red　circle　became　a　staring　eye；　I　looked　away。　
As　the　afternoon　wore　on；　I　went　back　to　bed；　simply　for　something　to　do。　
I　hoped　that　by　myself　in　the　dark；　I　could　give　in　to　the　terrible　fears　
that　hovered　on　the　edge　of　my　consciousness；　unable　to　break　through　
under　Jasper"s　careful　supervision。　
But　Alice　followed　me　casually；　as　if　by　some　coincidence　she　had　grown　
tired　of　the　front　room　at　the　same　time。　I　was　beginning　to　wonder　
exactly　what　sort　of　instructions　Edward　had　given　her。　I　lay　across　the　
bed；　and　she　sat；　legs　folded；　next　to　me。　I　ignored　her　at　first；　
suddenly　tired　enough　to　sleep。　But　after　a　few　minutes；　the　panic　that　
had　held　off　in　Jasper"s　presence　began　to　make　itself　known。　I　gave　up　
on　the　idea　of　sleep　quickly　then；　curling　up　into　a　small　ball；　wrapping　
my　arms　around　my　legs。　
〃Alice？〃　I　asked。　
〃Yes？〃　
I　kept　my　voice　very　calm。　〃What　do　you　think　they"re　doing？〃　
〃Carlisle　wanted　to　lead　the　tracker　as　far　north　as　possible；　wait　for　
him　to　get　close；　and　then　turn　and　ambush　him。　Esme　and　Rosalie　were　
supposed　to　head　west　as　long　as　they　could　keep　the　female　behind　them。　
If　she　turned　around；　they　were　to　head　back　to　Forks　and　keep　an　eye　on　
your　dad。　So　I　imagine　things　are　going　well　if　they　can"t　call。　It　means　
the　tracker　is　close　enough　that　they　don"t　want　him　to　overhear。〃　
〃And　Esme？〃　
〃I　think　she　must　be　back　in　Forks。　She　won"t　call　if　there"s　any　chance　
the　female　will　overhear。　I　expect　they"re　all　just　being　very　careful。〃　
〃Do　you　think　they"re　safe；　really？〃　
〃Bella；　how　many　times　do　we　have　to　tell　you　that　there"s　no　danger　to　
us？〃　
〃Would　you　tell　me　the　truth；　though？〃　
〃Yes。　I　will　always　tell　you　the　truth。〃　Her　voice　was　earnest。　
I　deliberated　for　a　moment；　and　decided　she　meant　it。　
〃Tell　me　then…　how　do　you　bee　a　vampire？〃　
My　question　caught　her　off　guard。　She　was　quiet。　I　rolled　over　to　look　at　
her；　and　her　expression　seemed　ambivalent。　
〃Edward　doesn"t　want　me　to　tell　you　that；〃　she　said　firmly；　but　I　sensed　
she　didn"t　agree。　
〃That"s　not　fair。　I　think　I　have　a　right　to　know。〃　
〃I　know。〃　
I　looked　at　her；　waiting。　
She　sighed。　〃He"ll　be　extremely　angry。〃　
〃It"s　none　of　his　business。　This　is　between　you　and　me。　Alice；　as　a　
friend；　I"m　begging　you。〃　And　we　were　friends　now；　somehow　—　as　she　must　
have　known　we　would　be　all　along。　
She　looked　at　me　with　her　splendid；　wise　eyes…　choosing。　
〃I"ll　tell　you　the　mechanics　of　it；〃　she　said　finally；　〃but　I　don"t　
remember　it　myself；　and　I"ve　never　done　it　or　seen　it　done；　so　keep　in　
mind　that　I　can　only　tell　you　the　theory。〃　
I　waited。　
〃As　predators；　we　have　a　glut　of　weapons　in　our　physical　arsenal　—　much；　
much　more　than　really　necessary。　The　strength；　the　speed；　the　acute　
senses；　not　to　mention　those　of　us　like　Edward；　Jasper；　and　I；　who　have　
extra　senses　as　well。　And　then；　like　a　carnivorous　flower；　we　are　
physically　attractive　to　our　prey。〃　
I　was　very　still；　remembering　how　pointedly　Edward　had　demonstrated　the　
same　concept　for　me　in　the　meadow。　
She　smiled　a　wide；　ominous　smile。　〃We　have　another　fairly　superfluous　
weapon。　We"re　also　venomous；〃　she　said；　her　teeth　glistening。　〃The　venom　
doesn"t　kill　—　it"s　merely　incapacitating。　It　works　slowly；　spreading　
through　the　bloodstream；　so　that；　once　bitten；　our　prey　is　in　too　much　
physical　pain　to　escape　us。　Mostly　superfluous；　as　I　said。　If　we"re　that　
close；　the　prey　doesn"t　escape。　Of　course；　there　are　always　exceptions。　
Carlisle；　for　example。〃　
〃So…　if　the　venom　is　left　to　spread…〃　I　murmured。　
〃It　takes　a　few　days　for　the　transformation　to　be　plete；　depending　on　
how　much　venom　is　in　the　bloodstream；　how　close　the　venom　enters　to　the　
heart。　As　long　as　the　heart　keeps　beating；　the　poison　spreads；　healing；　
changing　the　body　as　it　moves　through　it。　Eventually　the　heart　stops；　and　
the　conversion　is　finished。　But　all　that　time；　every　minute　of　it；　a　
victim　would　be　wishing　for　death。〃　
I　shivered。　
〃It"s　not　pleasant；　you　see。〃　
〃Edward　said　that　it　was　very　hard　to　do…　I　don"t　quite　understand；〃　I　
said。　
〃We"re　also　like　sharks　in　a　way。　Once　we　taste　the　blood；　or　even　smell　
it　for　that　matter；　it　bees　very　hard　to　keep　from　feeding。　Sometimes　
impossible。　So　you　see；　to　actually　bite　someone；　to　taste　the　blood；　i