《1 twilight暮色》第112章

〃Hey；　I　didn"t　see　you　there；〃　he　mumbled。　〃I　guess　I"ll　see　you　around；　
Bella。〃　He　stepped　back；　waving　halfheartedly。　
I　smiled。　〃Yeah；　I"ll　see　you　later。〃　
〃Sorry；〃　he　said　again　before　he　turned　for　the　door。　
Edward"s　arms　wound　around　me　as　the　next　song　started。　It　was　a　little　
uptempo　for　slow　dancing；　but　that　didn"t　seem　to　concern　him。　I　leaned　
my　head　against　his　chest；　content。　
〃Feeling　better？〃　I　teased。　
〃Not　really；〃　he　said　tersely。　
〃Don"t　be　mad　at　Billy；〃　I　sighed。　〃He　just　worries　about　me　for　
Charlie"s　sake。　It"s　nothing　personal。〃　
〃I"m　not　mad　at　Billy；〃　he　corrected　in　a　clipped　voice。　〃But　his　son　is　
irritating　me。〃　
I　pulled　back　to　look　at　him。　His　face　was　very　serious。　
〃Why？〃　
〃First　of　all；　he　made　me　break　my　promise。〃　
I　stared　at　him　in　confusion。　
He　halfsmiled。　〃I　promised　I　wouldn"t　let　go　of　you　tonight；〃　he　
explained。　
〃Oh。　Well；　I　forgive　you。〃　
〃Thanks。　But　there"s　something　else。〃　Edward　frowned。　
I　waited　patiently。　
〃He　called　you　pretty；〃　he　finally　continued；　his　frown　deepening。　
〃That"s　practically　an　insult；　the　way　you　look　right　now。　You"re　much　
more　than　beautiful。〃　
I　laughed。　〃You　might　be　a　little　biased。〃　
〃I　don"t　think　that"s　it。　Besides；　I　have　excellent　eyesight。〃　
We　were　twirling　again；　my　feet　on　his　as　he　held　me　close。　
〃So　are　you　going　to　explain　the　reason　for　all　of　this？〃　I　wondered。　
He　looked　down　at　me；　confused；　and　I　glared　meaningfully　at　the　crepe　
paper。　
He　considered　for　a　moment；　and　then　changed　direction；　spinning　me　
through　the　crowd　to　the　back　door　of　the　gym。　I　caught　a　glimpse　of　
Jessica　and　Mike　dancing；　staring　at　me　curiously。　Jessica　waved；　and　I　
smiled　back　quickly。　Angela　was　there；　too；　looking　blissfully　happy　in　
the　arms　of　little　Ben　Cheney；　she　didn"t　look　up　from　his　eyes；　a　head　
lower　than　hers。　Lee　and　Samantha；　Lauren；　glaring　toward　us；　with　
Conner；　I　could　name　every　face　that　spiraled　past　me。　And　then　we　were　
outdoors；　in　the　cool；　dim　light　of　a　fading　sunset。　
As　soon　as　we　were　alone；　he　swung　me　up　into　his　arms；　and　carried　me　
across　the　dark　grounds　till　he　reached　the　bench　beneath　the　shadow　of　
the　madrone　trees。　He　sat　there；　keeping　me　cradled　against　his　chest。　
The　moon　was　already　up；　visible　through　the　gauzy　clouds；　and　his　face　
glowed　pale　in　the　white　light。　His　mouth　was　hard；　his　eyes　troubled。　
〃The　point？〃　I　prompted　softly。　
He　ignored　me；　staring　up　at　the　moon。　
〃Twilight；　again；〃　he　murmured。　〃Another　ending。　No　matter　how　perfect　
the　day　is；　it　always　has　to　end。〃　
〃Some　things　don"t　have　to　end；〃　I　muttered　through　my　teeth；　instantly　
tense。　
He　sighed。　
〃I　brought　you　to　the　prom；〃　he　said　slowly；　finally　answering　my　
question；　〃because　I　don"t　want　you　to　miss　anything。　I　don"t　want　my　
presence　to　take　anything　away　from　you；　if　I　can　help　it。　I　want　you　to　
be　human。　I　want　your　life　to　continue　as　it　would　have　if　I"d　died　in　
nieeneighteen　like　I　should　have。〃　
I　shuddered　at　his　words；　and　then　shook　my　head　angrily。　〃In　what　
strange　parallel　dimension　would　I　ever　have　gone　to　prom　of　my　own　free　
will？　If　you　weren"t　a　thousand　times　stronger　than　me；　I　would　never　
have　let　you　get　away　with　this。〃　
He　smiled　briefly；　but　it　didn"t　touch　his　eyes。　〃It　wasn"t　so　bad；　you　
said　so　yourself。〃　
〃That"s　because　I　was　with　you。〃　
We　were　quiet　for　a　minute；　he　stared　at　the　moon　and　I　stared　at　him。　I　
wished　there　was　some　way　to　explain　how　very　uninterested　I　was　in　a　
normal　human　life。　
〃Will　you　tell　me　something？〃　he　asked；　glancing　down　at　me　with　a　slight　
smile。　
〃Don"t　I　always？〃　
〃Just　promise　you"ll　tell　me；〃　he　insisted；　grinning。　
I　knew　I　was　going　to　regret　this　almost　instantly。　〃Fine。〃　
〃You　seemed　honestly　surprised　when　you　figured　out　that　I　was　taking　you　
here；〃　he　began。　
〃I　was；〃　I　interjected。　
〃Exactly；〃　he　agreed。　〃But　you　must　have　had　some　other　theory…　I"m　
curious　—　what　did　you　think　I　was　dressing　you　up　for？〃　
Yes；　instant　regret。　I　pursed　my　lips；　hesitating。　〃I　don"t　want　to　tell　
you。〃　
〃You　promised；〃　he　objected。　
〃I　know。〃　
〃What"s　the　problem？〃　
I　knew　he　thought　it　was　mere　embarrassment　holding　me　back。　〃I　think　it　
will　make　you　mad　—　or　sad。〃　
His　brows　pulled　together　over　his　eyes　as　he　thought　that　through。　〃I　
still　want　to　know。　Please？〃　
I　sighed。　He　waited。　
〃Well…　I　assumed　it　was　some　kind　of…　occasion。　But　I　didn"t　think　it　
would　be　some　trite　human　thing…　prom！〃　I　scoffed。　
〃Human？〃　he　asked　flatly。　He"d　picked　up　on　the　key　word。　
I　looked　down　at　my　dress；　fidgeting　with　a　stray　piece　of　chiffon。　He　
waited　in　silence。　
〃Okay；〃　I　confessed　in　a　rush。　〃So　I　was　hoping　that　you　might　have　
changed　your　mind…　that　you　were　going　to　change　me；　after　all。〃　
A　dozen　emotions　played　across　his　face。　Some　I　recognized：　anger…　pain…　
and　then　he　seemed　to　collect　himself　and　his　expression　became　amused。　
〃You　thought　that　would　be　a　black　tie　occasion；　did　you？〃　he　teased；　
touching　the　lapel　of　his　tuxedo　jacket。　
I　scowled　to　hide　my　embarrassment。　〃I　don"t　know　how　these　things　work。　
To　me；　at　least；　it　seems　more　rational　than　prom　does。〃　He　was　still　
grinning。　〃It"s　not　funny；〃　I　said。　
〃No；　you"re　right；　it"s　not；〃　he　agreed；　his　smile　fading。　〃I"d　rather　
treat　it　like　a　joke；　though；　than　believe　you"re　serious。〃　
〃But　I　am　serious。〃　
He　sighed　deeply。　〃I　know。　And　you"re　really　that　willing？〃　
The　pain　was　back　in　his　eyes。　I　bit　my　lip　and　nodded。　
〃So　ready　for　this　to　be　the　end；〃　he　murmured；　almost　to　himself；　〃for　
this　to　be　the　twilight　of　your　life；　though　your　life　has　barely　
started。　You"re　ready　to　give　up　everything。〃　
〃It"s　not　the　end；　it"s　the　beginning；〃　I　disagreed　under　my　breath。　
〃I"m　not　worth　it；〃　he　said　sadly。　
〃Do　you　remember　when　you　told　me　that　I　didn"t　see　myself　very　clearly？〃　
I　asked；　raising　my　eyebrows。　〃You　obviously　have　the　same　blindness。〃　
〃I　know　what　I　am。〃　
I　sighed。　
But　his　mercurial　mood　shifted　on　me。　He　p