《2 new+moon新月》第89章

smooth—masklike。　He　didn"t　fool　me；　I　could　see　the　faint　trembling　of　his　hands。　
Hostility　rolled　off　of　him　in　waves。　It　brought　back　that　awful　afternoon　when　he"d　chosen　Sam　over　me；　
and　I　felt　my　chin　jerk　up　defensively　in　response。　
Jacob"s　Rabbit　idled　by　the　curb　with　Jared　behind　the　wheel　and　Embry　in　the　passenger　seat。　I　
understood　what　this　meant：　they　were　afraid　to　let　him　e　here　alone。　It　made　me　sad；　and　a　little　
annoyed。　The　Cullens　weren"t　like　that。　
〃Hey；〃　I　finally　said　when　he　didn"t　speak。　
Jake　pursed　his　lips；　still　hanging　back　from　the　door。　His　eyes　flickered　across　the　front　of　the　house。　
I　ground　my　teeth。　〃She"s　not　here。　Do　you　need　something？〃　
He　hesitated。　〃You"re　alone？〃　
〃Yes。〃　I　sighed。　
〃Can　I　talk　to　you　a　minute？〃　
〃Of　course　you　can；　Jacob。　e　on　in。〃　
Jacob　glanced　over　his　shoulder　at　his　friends　in　the　car。　I　saw　Embry　shake　his　head　just　a　tiny　bit。　For　
some　reason；　this　bugged　me　to　no　end。　
My　teeth　clenched　together　again。　〃Chicken〃　I　mumbled　under　my　breath。　
Jake"s　eyes　flashed　back　to　me；　his　thick；　black　brows　pushing　into　a　furious　angle　over　his　deepset　
eyes。　His　jaw　set；　and　he　marched—there　was　no　other　way　to　describe　the　way　he　moved—up　the　
sidewalk　and　shrugged　past　me　into　the　house。　
I　locked　gazes　with　first　Jared　and　then　Embry—I　didn"t　like　the　hard　way　they　eyed　me；　did　they　really　
think　I　would　let　anything　hurt　Jacob？—before　I　shut　the　door　on　them。　
Jacob　was　in　the　hall　behind　me；　staring　at　the　mess　of　blankets　in　the　living　room。　
〃Slumber　party？〃　he　asked；　his　tone　sarcastic。　
〃Yeah；〃　I　answered　with　the　same　level　of　acid。　I　didn"t　like　Jacob　when　he　acted　this　way。　〃What"s　it　to　
you？〃　
He　wrinkled　his　nose　again　like　he　smelled　something　unpleasant。　〃Where"s　your　"friend"？〃　I　could　hear　
the　quotation　marks　in　his　tone。　
〃She　had　some　errands　to　run。　Look；　Jacob；　what　do　you　want？〃　
Something　about　the　room　seemed　to　make　him　edgier—his　long　arms　were　quivering。　He　didn"t　answer　
my　question。　Instead　he　moved　on　to　the　kitchen；　his　restless　eyes　darting　everywhere。　
I　followed　him。　He　paced　back　and　forth　along　the　short　counter。　
〃Hey；〃　I　said；　putting　myself　in　his　way。　He　stopped　pacing　and　stared　down　at　me。　〃What"s　your　
problem？〃　
〃I　don"t　like　having　to　be　here。〃　
That　stung。　I　winced；　and　his　eyes　tightened。　
〃Then　I"m　sorry　you　had　to　e；〃　I　muttered。　〃Why　don"t　you　tell　me　what　you　need　so　you　can　leave？〃　
〃I　just　have　to　ask　you　a　couple　of　questions。　It　shouldn"t　take　long。　We　have　to　get　back　for　the　funeral。〃　
〃Okay。　Get　it　over　with　then。〃　I　was　probably　overdoing　it　with　the　antagonism；　but　I　didn"t　want　him　to　
see　how　much　this　hurt。　I　knew　I　wasn"t　being　fair。　After　all；　I"d　picked　the　bloodsucker　over　him　last　
night。　I"d　hurt　him　first。　
He　took　a　deep　breath；　and　his　trembling　fingers　were　suddenly　still。　His　face　smoothed　into　a　serene　
mask。　
〃One　of　the　Cullens　is　staying　here　with　you；〃　he　stated。　
〃Yes。　Alice　Cullen。〃　
He　nodded　thoughtfully。　〃How　long　is　she　here　for？〃　
〃As　long　as　she　wants　to　be。〃　The　belligerence　was　still　there　in　my　tone。　〃It"s　an　open　invitation。〃　
〃Do　you　think　you　could…　please…　explain　to　her　about　the　other　one—Victoria？〃　
I　paled。　〃I　told　her　about　that。〃　
He　nodded。　〃You　should　know　that　we　can　only　watch　our　own　lands　with　a　Cullen　here。　You"ll　only　be　
safe　in　La　Push。　I　can"t　protect　you　here　anymore。〃　
〃Okay；〃　I　said　in　a　small　voice。　
He　looked　away　then；　out　the　back　windows。　He　didn"t　continue。　
〃Is　that　all？〃　
He　kept　his　eyes　on　the　glass　as　he　answered。　〃Just　one　more　thing。〃　
I　waited；　but　he　didn"t　continue。　〃Yes？〃　I　finally　prompted。　
〃Are　the　rest　of　them　ing　back　now？〃　he　asked　in　a　cool；　quiet　voice。　It　reminded　me　of　Sam"s　
always　calm　manner。　Jacob　was　being　more　like　Sam…　I　wondered　why　that　bothered　me　so　much。　
Now　I　didn"t　speak。　He　looked　back　at　my　face　with　probing　eyes。　
〃Well？〃　he　asked。　He　struggled　to　conceal　the　tension　behind　his　serene　expression。　
〃No。〃　I　said　finally。　Grudgingly。　〃They　aren"t　ing　back。〃　
His　expression　didn"t　change。　〃Okay。　That"s　all。〃　
I　glared　at　him；　annoyance　rekindled。　〃Well；　run　along　now。　Go　tell　Sam　that　the　scary　monsters　aren"t　
ing　to　get　you。〃　
〃Okay；〃　he　repeated；　still　calm。　
That　seemed　to　be　it。　Jacob　walked　swiftly　from　the　kitchen。　I　waited　to　hear　the　front　door　open；　but　I　
heard　nothing。　I　could　hear　the　clock　over　the　stove　ticking；　and　I　marveled　again　at　how　quiet　he"d　
bee。　
What　a　disaster。　How　could　I　have　alienated　him　so　pletely　in　such　a　short　amount　of　time？　
Would　he　forgive　me　when　Alice　was　gone？　What　if　he　didn"t？　
I　slumped　against　the　counter　and　buried　my　face　in　my　hands。　How　had　I　made　such　a　mess　of　
everything？　But　what　could　I　have　done　differently？　Even　in　hindsight；　I　couldn"t　think　of　any　better　way；　
any　perfect　course　of　action。　
〃Bella…　？〃　Jacob　asked　in　a　troubled　voice。　
I　pulled　my　face　out　of　my　hands　to　see　Jacob　hesitating　in　the　kitchen　doorway；　he　hadn"t　left　when　I"d　
thought。　It　was　only　when　I　saw　the　clear　drops　sparkling　in　my　hands　that　I　realized　I　was　crying。　
Jacob"s　calm　expression　was　gone；　his　face　was　anxious　and　unsure。　He　walked　quickly　back　to　stand　in　
front　of　me；　ducking　his　head　so　that　his　eyes　were　closer　to　being　on　the　same　level　with　mine。　
〃Did　it　again；　didn"t　I？〃　
〃Did　what？〃　I　asked；　my　voice　cracking。　
〃Broke　my　promise。　Sorry。〃　
〃"S"okay；〃　I　mumbled。　〃I　started　it　this　time。〃　
His　face　twisted。　〃I　knew　how　you　felt　about　them。　It　shouldn"t　have　taken　me　by　surprise　like　that。〃　
I　could　see　the　revulsion　in　his　eyes。　I　wanted　to　explain　to　him　what　Alice　was　really　like；　to　defend　her　
against　the　judgments　he"d　made；　but　something　warned　me　that　now　was　not　the　time。　
So　I　just　said；　〃Sorry；〃　again。　
〃Let"s　not　worry　about　it；　okay？　She"s　just　visiting；　right？　She"ll　leave；　and　things　will　go　back　to　normal。〃　
〃Can"t　I　be　friends　with　you　both　at　the　same　time？〃　I　asked；　my　voice　not　hiding　an　ounce　of　the　hurt　I　
felt。　
He　sh