《4 breaking dawn破晓》第162章

Esme"s　desk　was　stacked　with　plans　and　blueprints；　everything　neatly　laid　out　in　tall　piles。　The　desk　had　a　
slew　of　pigeonholes　above　the　work　surface；　in　one　was　a　box　of　stationery。　I　took　a　fresh　sheet　of　paper　
and　a　pen。　
Then　I　stared　at　the　blank　ivory　page　for　a　full　five　minutes；　concentrating　on　my　decision。　Alice　might　
not　be　able　to　see　Jacob　or　Renesmee；　but　she　could　see　me。　I　visualized　her　seeing　this　moment；　hoping　
desperately　that　she　wasn"t　too　busy　to　pay　attention。　
Slowly；　deliberately；　I　wrote　the　words　RIO　DE　JANEIRO　in　all　caps　across　the　page。　
Rio　seemed　the　best　place　to　send　them：　It　was　far　away　from　here；　Alice　and　Jasper　were　already　in　
South　America　at　last　report；　and　it　wasn"t　like　our　old　problems　had　ceased　to　exist　just　because　we　had　
worse　problems　now。　There　was　still　the　mystery　of　Renesmee"s　future；　the　terror　of　her　racing　age。　
We"d　been　headed　south　anyway。　Now　it　would　be　Jacob"s；　and　hopefully　Alice"s；　job　to　search　for　the　
legends。　
I　bowed　my　head　again　against　a　sudden　urge　to　sob；　clenching　my　teeth　together。　It　was　better　that　
Renesmee　go　on　without　me。　But　I　already　missed　her　so　much　I　could　barely　stand　it。　
I　took　a　deep　breath　and　put　the　note　at　the　bottom　of　the　duffel　bag；　where　Jacob　would　find　it　soon　
enough。　
I　crossed　my　fingers　that—since　it　was　unlikely　that　his　high　school　offered　Portuguese—Jake　had　at　
least　taken　Spanish　as　his　language　elective。　
There　was　nothing　left　now　but　waiting。　
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For　two　days；　Edward　and　Carlisle　stayed　in　the　clearing　where　Alice　had　seen　the　Volturi　arrive。　It　was　
the　same　killing　field　where　Victoria"s　newborns　had　attacked　last　summer。　I　wondered　if　it　felt　repetitive　
to　Carlisle；　like　deja　vu。　For　me；　it　would　be　all　new。　This　time　Edward　and　I　would　stand　with　our　
family。　
We　could　only　imagine　that　the　Volturi　would　be　tracking　either　Edward　or　Carlisle。　I　wondered　if　it　
would　surprise　them　that　their　prey　didn"t　run。　Would　that　make　them　wary？　I　couldn"t　imagine　the　Volturi　
ever　feeling　a　need　for　caution。　
Though　I　was—hopefully—invisible　to　Demetri；　I　stayed　with　Edward。　Of　course。　We　only　had　a　few　
hours　left　to　be　together。　
Edward　and　I　had　not　had　a　last　grand　scene　of　farewell；　nor　did　I　plan　one。　To　speak　the　word　was　to　
make　it　final。　It　would　be　the　same　as　typing　the　words　The　End　on　the　last　page　of　a　manuscript。　So　we　
did　not　say　our　goodbyes；　and　we　stayed　very　close　to　each　other；　always　touching。　Whatever　end　found　
us；　it　would　not　find　us　separated。　
We　set　up　a　tent　for　Renesmee　a　few　yards　back　into　the　protective　forest；　and　then　there　was　more　
deja　vu　as　we　found　ourselves　camping　in　the　cold　again　with　Jacob。　It　was　almost　impossible　to　believe　
how　much　things　had　changed　since　last　June。　Seven　months　ago；　our　triangular　relationship　seemed　
impossible；　three　different　kinds　of　heartbreak　that　could　not　be　avoided。　Now　everything　was　in　perfect　
balance。　It　seemed　hideously　ironic　that　the　puzzle　pieces　would　fit　together　just　in　time　for　all　of　them　to　
be　destroyed。　
It　started　to　snow　again　the　night　before　New　Year"s　Eve。　This　time；　the　tiny　flakes　did　not　dissolve　into　
the　stony　ground　of　the　clearing。　While　Renesmee　and　Jacob　slept—Jacob　snoring　so　loudly　I　wondered　
how　Renesmee　didn"t　wake—the　snow　made　first　a　thin　icing　over　the　earth；　then　built　into　thicker　drifts。　
By　the　time　the　sun　rose；　the　scene　from　Alice"s　vision　was　plete。　Edward　and　I　held　hands　as　we　
stared　across　the　glittering　white　field；　and　neither　of　us　spoke。　
Through　the　early　morning；　the　others　gathered；　their　eyes　bearing　mute　evidence　of　their　preparations　
—some　light　gold；　some　rich　crimson。　Soon　after　we　all　were　together；　we　could　hear　the　wolves　moving　
in　the　woods。　Jacob　emerged　from　the　tent；　leaving　Renesmee　still　sleeping；　to　join　them。　
Edward　and　Carlisle　were　arraying　the　others　into　a　loose　formation；　our　witnesses　to　the　sides　like　
galleries。　
I　watched　from　a　distance；　waiting　by　the　tent　for　Renesmee　to　wake。　When　she　did；　I　helped　her　dress　
in　the　clothes　I"d　carefully　picked　out　two　days　before。　Clothes　that　looked　frilly　and　feminine　but　that　
were　actually　sturdy　enough　to　not　show　any　wear—even　if　a　person　wore　them　while　riding　a　giant　
werewolf　through　a　couple　of　states。　Over　her　jacket　I　put　on　the　black　leather　backpack　with　the　
documents；　the　money；　the　clue；　and　my　love　notes　for　her　and　Jacob；　Charlie　and　Renee。　She　was　
strong　enough　that　it　was　no　burden　to　her。　
Her　eyes　were　huge　as　she　read　the　agony　on　my　face。　But　she　had　guessed　enough　not　to　ask　me　what　
I　was　doing。　
〃I　love　you；〃　I　told　her。　〃More　than　anything。〃　
〃I　love　you；　too；　Momma；〃　she　answered。　She　touched　the　locket　at　her　neck；　which　now　held　a　tiny　
photo　of　her；　Edward；　and　me。　〃We"ll　always　be　together。〃　
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〃In　our　hearts　we"ll　always　be　together；〃　I　corrected　in　a　whisper　as　quiet　as　a　breath。　〃But　when　the　time　
es　today；　you　have　to　leave　me。〃　
Her　eyes　widened；　and　she　touched　her　hand　to　my　cheek。　The　silent　no　was　louder　than　if　she"d　
shouted　it。　
I　fought　to　swallow；　my　throat　felt　swollen。　〃Will　you　do　it　for　me？　Please？〃　
She　pressed　her　fingers　harder　to　my　face。　Why？　
〃I　can"t　tell　you；〃　I　whispered。　〃But　you"ll　understand　soon。　I　promise。"7　
In　my　head；　I　saw　Jacob"s　face。　
I　nodded；　then　pulled　her　fingers　away。　〃Don"t　think　of　it；〃　I　breathed　into　her　ear。　〃Don"t　tell　Jacob　until　I　
tell　you　to　run；　okay？〃　
This　she　understood。　She　nodded；　too。　
I　took　from　my　pocket　one　last　detail。　
While　packing　Renesmee"s　things；　an　unexpected　sparkle　of　color　had　caught　my　eye。　A　chance　ray　of　
sun　through　the　skylight　had　hit　the　jewels　on　the　ancient　precious　box　stuffed　high　overhead　on　a　shelf　in　
an　untouched　corner。　I　considered　it　for　a　moment　and　then　shrugged。　After　putting　together　Alice"s　
clues；　I　couldn"t　hope　that　the　ing　confrontation　would　be　resol