《安妮日记》第51章

enerous　and　unselfish
people　do；　risking　their　own　lives　to　help　and　save　others。
the　best　example　of　this　is　our　own　helpers；　who　have　managed　to　pull　us　through　so　far　and　will　hopefully　bring　us　safely　to　shore；　because　otherwise　theyll　find　themselves　sharing　the　fate　of　those　theyre　trying　to　protect。　never　have　they　uttered　a　single　word　about　the　burden　we　must　be；　never　have　they　plained　that　were　too　much　trouble。　they　e　upstairs　every　day　and　talk　to　the　men　about　business　and　politics；　to　the　women　about　food　and　wartime　difficulties　and　to　the　children　about　books　and　newspapers。　they　put　on　their　most　cheerful　expressions；　bring　flowers　and　gifts　for　birthdays　and　holidays　and　are　always　ready　to　do　what　they　can。
thats　something　we　should　never　forget；　while　others　display　their　heroism　in　battle　or　against　the　germans；　our　helpers　prove　theirs　every　day　by　their　good　spirits　and　affection。
the　most　bizarre　stories　are　making　the　rounds；　yet　most　of　them　are　really　true。　for　instance；　mr。　kleiman　reported　this　week　that　a　soccer　match　was　held　in　the　province　of　gelderland；　one　team　consisted　entirely　of　men　who　had　gone　underground；　and　the　other　of　eleven　military　policemen。　in　hilversum；　new　registration　cards　were　issued。
in　order　for　the　many　people　in　hiding　to　get　their　rations　（you　have　to　show　this　card　to　obtain　your　ration　book　or　else　pay　60　guilders　a　book）；　the　registrar　asked　all　those　hiding　in　that　district　to　pick　up　their　cards　at　a　specified　hour；　when　the　documents　could　be　collected　at　a　separate　table。
all　the　same；　you　have　to　be　careful　that　stunts　like　these　dont　reach　the　ears　of　the　germans。
yours；　anne　
sunday；　january　30；　1944
my　dearest　kit；　another　sunday　has　rolled　around；　i　dont　mind　them　as　much　as　i　did　in　the　beginning；　but　theyre　boring　enough。
i　still　havent　gone　to　the　warehouse　yet；　but　maybe　sometime　soon。　last　night　i　went　downstairs　in　the　dark；　all　by　myself；　after　having　been　there　with　father　a　few　nights　before。　i　stood　at　the　top　of　the　stairs　while　german　planes　flew　back　and　forth；　and　i　knew　i　was　on　my　own；　that　i　couldnt　count　on　others　for　support。　my　fear　vanished。
i　looked　up　at　the　sky　and　trusted　in　god。
i　have　an　intense　need　to　be　alone。　father　has　noticed　im　not　my　usual　self；　but　i　cant　tell　him　whats　bothering　me。　all　i　want　to　do　is　scream　〃let　me　be；　leave　me　alone！”
who　knows；　perhaps　the　day　will　e　when　im　left　alone　more　than　id　like！
anne　frank
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FEBRUARY；　1944
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thursday；　february　3；　1944
dearest　kitty；
invasion　fever　is　mounting　daily　throughout　the　country。　if　you　were　here；　im　sure　youd　be　as　impressed　as　i　am　at　the　many　preparations；　though　youd　no　doubt　laugh　at　all　the　fuss　were　making。　who　knows；　it　may　all　be　for　nothing！
the　papers　are　full　of　invasion　news　and　are　driving　everyone　insane　with　such　statements　as：　〃in　the　event　of　a　british　landing　in　holland；　the　germans　will　do　what　they　can　to　defend　the　country；　even　flooding　it；　if　necessary。〃　theyve　published　maps　of　holland　with　the　potential　flood　areas　marked。　since　large　portions　of　amsterdam　were　shaded　in；　our　first　question　was　what　we　should　do　if　the　water　in　the　streets　rose　to　above　our　waists。　this　tricky　question　elicited　a　variety　of　responses：
〃itll　be　impossible　to　walk　or　ride　a　bike；　so　well　have　to　wade　through　the　water。”
〃dont　be　silly。　well　have　to　try　and　swim。　well　all　put　on　our　bathing　suits　and　caps　and　swim　underwater　as　much　as　we　can；　so　nobody　can　see　were　jews。”
〃oh；　baloney！　i　can　just　imagine　the　ladies　swimming　with　the　rats　biting　their　legs！”
（that　was　a　man；　of　course；　well　see　who　screams　loudest！）
〃we　wont　even　be　able　to　leave　the　house。　the　warehouse　is　so　unstable　itll　collapse　if　theres　a　flood。”
〃listen；　everyone；　all　joking　aside；　we　really　ought　to　try　and　get　a　boat。”
〃why　bother？　i　have　a　better　idea。　we　can　each　take　a　packing　crate　from　the　attic　and　row　with　a　wooden　spoon。”
〃im　going　to　walk　on　stilts。　i　used　to　be　a　whiz　at　it　when　i　was　young。〃
〃jan　gies　wont　need　to。　hell　let　his　wife　ride　piggyback；　and　then　miep　will　be　on　stilts。”
so　now　you　have　a　rough　idea　of　whats　going　on；　dont　you；　kit？　this　lighthearted　banter　is　all　very　amusing；　but　reality　will　prove　otherwise。　the　second　question　about　the　invasion　was　bound　to　arise：　what　should　we　do　if　the　germans　evacuate　amsterdam？
〃leave　the　city　along　with　the　others。　disguise　ourselves　as　well　as　we　can。”
〃whatever　happens；　dont　go　outside！　the　best　thing　to　do　is　to　stay　put！　the　germans　are　capable　of　herding　the　entire　population　of　holland　into　germany；　where　theyll　all　die。”
〃of　course　well　stay　here。　this　is　the　safest　place。
well　try　to　talk　kleiman　and　his　family　into　ing　here　to　live　with　us。　well　somehow　get　hold　of　a　bag　of　wood　shavings；　so　we　can　sleep　on　the　floor。　lets　ask　miep　and　kleiman　to　bring　some　blankets；　just　in　case。　and　well　order　some　extra　cereal　grains　to　supplement　the　sixty…five　pounds　we　already　have。　jan　can　try　to　find　some　more　beans。　at　the　moment　weve　got　about　sixty…five　pounds　of　beans　and　ten　pounds　of　split　peas。　and　dont　forget　the　fifty　cans　of　vegetables。”
〃what　about　the　rest；　mother？　give　us　the　latest　figures。　；　〃ten　cans　of　fish；　forty　cans　of　milk；　twenty　pounds　of　powdered　milk；　three　bottles　of　oil；　four　crocks　of　butter；　four　jars　of　meat；　two　big　jars　of　strawberries；　two　jars　of　raspberries；　twenty　jars　of　tomatoes；　ten　pounds　of　oatmeal；　nine　pounds　of　rice。
thats　it。”
our　provisions　are　holding　out　fairly　well。　all　the　same；　we　have　to　feed　the　office　staff；　which　means　dipping　into　our　stock　every　week；　so　its　not　as　much　as　it　seems。
we　have　enough　coal　and　firewood；　candles　too。
〃lets　all　make　little　moneybags　to　hide　in　our　clothes　so　we　can　take　our　money　with　us　if　we　need　to　leave　here。”
〃we　can　make　lists　of　what　to　take　first　in　case　we　have　to　run　for　it；　and　pack　our　knapsacks　in　advance。〃
〃when　the　time　es；　well　put　two　people　on　the　lookout；　one　in　the　loft　at　the　front　of　the　house　and　one　in　the　back。”
〃hey；　whats　the　use　of　so　much　food　if　there　isnt　any