《5 midnight sun午夜阳光》第69章

at　the　memory。　She　had　flinched　away　from　him　then。　Her　reaction　now　was　nothing　the　same；　instead；　there　was　a　slight　widening　of　her　eyes；　a　rush　of　blood　under　her　skin；　and　a　sudden；　uneven　thumping　of　her　heart。　I　tried　to　hide　my　smile　as　I　answered　her　question。　I　suppose　you　could　say　yes　to　the　first　if　you　don　t　mind　；　her　choice；　always　her　choice；　it　s　easier　than　any　other　explanation。　I　don　t　mind；　she　whispered。　Her　heart　had　not　found　its　normal　rhythm　yet。
And　as　for　her　other　question　I　couldn　t　hide　my　smile　now。　listening　to　hear　the　answer　to　that　one　myself。　Let　Bella　consider　that。　Well；　I　ll　be　I　held　back　my　laugh　as　shock　crossed　her　face。　I　turned　quickly；　before　she　could　ask　for　any　more　answers。　I　had　a　difficult　time　not　giving　her　whatever　she　asked　for。　And　I　wanted　to　hear　her　thoughts；　not　mine。　I　ll　see　you　at　lunch；　I　called　back　to　her　over　my　shoulder；　an　excuse　to　check　that　she　was　still　staring　after　me；　wideeyed。　Her　mouth　was　hanging　open。　I　turned　away　again；　and　laughed。　that　swirled　around　me　eyes　bouncing　back　and　forth　between　Bella　s　face　and　my　retreating　figure。　I　paid　them　little　attention。　I　couldn　t　concentrate。　It　was　hard　enough　to　keep　my　feet　moving　at　an　acceptable　speed　as　I　crossed　the　soggy　grass　to　my　next　class。　I　wanted　to　run　really　run；　so　fast　that　I　would　disappear；　so　fast　that　it　would　feel　like　I　was　flying。　Part　of　me　was　flying　already。　I　put　the　jacket　on　when　I　got　to　class；　letting　her　fragrance　swim　thick　around　me。　I　would　burn　now　let　the　scent　desensitize　me　and　then　it　would　be　easier　to　ignore　it　later；　when　I　was　with　her　again　at　lunch　It　was　a　good　thing　that　my　teachers　no　longer　bothered　to　call　on　me。　Today　might　have　been　the　day　that　they　would　have　caught　me　out；　unprepared　and　answerless。　My　mind　was　in　so　many　places　this　morning；　only　my　body　was　in　the　classroom。　Of　course　I　was　watching　Bella。　That　was　being　natural　as　automatic　as　breathing。　I　heard　her　conversation　with　a　demoralized　Mike　Newton。　She　quickly　directed　the　conversation　to　Jessica；　and　I　grinned　so　wide　that　Rob　Sawyer；　who　sat　at　the　desk　to　my　right；　flinched　visibly　and　slid　deeper　into　his　seat；　away　from　me。　Ugh。　Creepy。　Well；　I　hadn　t　lost　it　entirely。　I　was　also　monitoring　Jessica　loosely；　watching　her　refine　her　questions　for　Bella。　I　could　barely　wait　for　fourth　period；　ten　times　as　eager　and　anxious　as　the　curious　human　girl　who　wanted　fresh　gossip。　And　I　was　also　listening　to　Angela　Weber。　I　had　not　forgotten　the　gratitude　I　felt　to　her　for　thinking　nothing　but　kind　things　toward　Bella　in　the　first　place；　and　then　for　her　help　last　night。　So　I　waited　through　the　morning；　looking　for　something　that　she　wanted。　I　assumed　it　would　be　an　easy；　like　any　other　human；　there　must　be　some　bauble　or　toy　she　wanted　particularly。　Several；　probably。　I　would　deliver　something　anonymously　and　call　us　even。　But　Angela　proved　almost　as　unacmodating　as　Bella　with　her　thoughts。　She　was　oddly　content　for　a　teenager。　Happy。　Perhaps　this　was　the　reason　for　her　unusual　kindness　she　was　one　of　those　rare　people　who　had　what　they　wanted　and　wanted　what
they　had。　If　she　wasn　t　paying　attention　to　her　teachers　and　her　notes；　she　was　thinking　of　the　twin　little　brothers　she　was　taking　to　the　beach　this　weekend　anticipating　their　excitement　with　an　almost　maternal　pleasure。　She　cared　for　them　often；　but　was　not　resentful　of　this　fact　It　was　very　sweet。　But　not　really　helpful　to　me。　There　had　to　be　something　she　wanted。　I　would　just　have　to　keep　looking。　later。　It　was　time　for　Bella　s　trig　class　with　Jessica。　But　I　wasn　t　watching　where　I　was　going　as　I　made　my　way　to　English。　Jessica　was　already　in　her　seat；　both　her　feet　tapping　impatiently　against　the　floor　as　she　waited　for　Bella　to　arrive。　Conversely；　once　I　settled　into　my　assigned　seat　in　the　classroom；　I　became　utterly　still。　I　had　to　remind　myself　to　fidget　now　and　then。　To　keep　up　the　charade。　It　was　difficult；　my　thoughts　were　so　focused　on　Jessica　s。　I　hoped　she　would　pay　attention；　really　try　to　read　Bella　s　face　for　me。　Jessica　s　tapping　intensified　when　Bella　walked　into　the　room。　She　looks　glum。　Why？　Maybe　there　s　nothing　going　on　with　Edward　Cullen。　That　would　be　a　disappointment。　Except　then　he　s　still　available　If　he　s　suddenly　interested　in　dating；　I　don　t　mind　helping　out　with　that　Bella　s　face　didn　t　look　glum；　it　looked　reluctant。　would　hear　all　of　this。　I　smiled　to　myself。　She　was　worried　she　knew　I　Tell　me　everything！　Jess　demanded　while　Bella　was　still　removing　her　jacket　to　hang　it　on　the　back　of　her　seat。　She　was　moving　with　deliberation；　unwilling。　Ugh；　she　s　so　slow。　Let　s　get　to　the　juicy　stuff！　What　do　you　want　to　know？　Bella　stalled　as　she　took　her　seat。　What　happened　last　night？　He　bought　me　dinner；　and　then　he　drove　me　home。　And　then？　C　mon；　there　has　to　be　more　than　that！　that。　I　m　going　to　call　her　on　it。　How　did　you　get　home　so　fast？　I　watched　Bella　roll　her　eyes　at　the　suspicious　Jessica。　He　drives　like　a　maniac。　It　was　terrifying。　She　s　lying　anyway；　I　know　She　smiled　a　tiny　smile；　and　I　laughed　out　loud；　interrupting　Mr。　Mason　s　announcements。　I　tried　to　turn　the　laugh　into　a　cough；　but　no　one　was　fooled。　Mr。　Mason　shot　me　an　irritated　look；　but　I　didn　t　even　bother　to　listen　to　the　thought　behind　it。　I　was　hearing　Jessica。　Huh。　She　sounds　like　she　s　telling　the　truth。　Why　is　she　making　me　pull　this　out　of　her；　word　by　word？　I　would　be　bragging　at　the　top　of　my　lungs　if　it　were　me。　Was　it　like　a　date　did　you　tell　him　to　meet　you　there？　Jessica　watched　surprise　cross　Bella　s　expression；　and　was　disappointed　at　how　genuine　it　seemed。
No　I　was　very　surprised　to　see　him　there；　Bella　told　her。　What　is　going　on？？　to　the　story。　But　he　picked　you　up　for　school　today？　There　has　to　be　more　Yes　that　was　a　surprise；　too。　He　noticed　I　didn　t　have　a　jacket　last　night。　That　s　not　very　much　fun；　Jessica　thought；　disappointed　again。　I　was　tired　of　her　line　of　questioning　I　wanted　to　hear　something　I　didn　t　already　know。　I　hoped　she　wasn　t　so　dissatisfied　that　she　would　skip　the　questions　I　was　waiting　for。　So　are　you　going　out　again？　Jessica　demanded。　He　offered　to　drive　me　to　Seattle　Saturday　beca