《5 midnight sun午夜阳光》第68章

ords；　the　conflict　between　them　too　wild　to　allow　for　a　coherent　response。　It　was　silent　in　the　car　except　for　the　steady　rhythms　of　her　heart　and　lungs。　Where　s　the　rest　of　your　family？　she　asked　suddenly。　I　took　a　deep　breath　registering　the　scent　in　the　car　with　true　pain　for　the　first　time；　I　was　getting　used　to　this；　I　realized　with　satisfaction　and　forced　myself　to　be　casual　again。　They　took　Rosalie　s　car。　I　parked　in　the　open　spot　next　to　the　car　in　question。　I　hid　my　smile　as　I　watched　her　eyes　widen。　Ostentatious；　isn　t　it？　Um；　wow。　If　she　has　that；　why　does　she　ride　with　you？　Rosalie　would　have　enjoyed　Bella　s　reaction　if　she　were　being　objective　about　Bella；　which　probably　wouldn　t　happen。　Like　I　said；　it　s　ostentatious。　We　try　to　blend　in。　You　don　t　succeed；　she　told　me；　and　then　she　laughed　a　carefree　laugh。　The　blithe；　wholly　untroubled　sound　of　her　laughter　warmed　my　hollow　chest　even　as　it　made　my　head　swim　with　doubt。　So　why　did　Rosalie　drive　today　if　it　s　more　conspicuous？　she　wondered。　Hadn　t　you　noticed？　I　m　breaking　all　the　rules　now。　My　answer　should　have　been　mildly　frightening　so；　of　course；　Bella　smiled　at　it。　She　didn　t　wait　for　me　to　open　her　door；　just　like　last　night。　I　had　to　feign　normality　here　at　school　so　I　couldn　t　move　fast　enough　to　prevent　this　but　she　was　just　going　to　have　to　get　used　to　being　treated　with　more　courtesy；　and　get　used　to　it　soon。　I　walked　as　close　to　her　as　I　dared；　watching　carefully　for　any　sign　that　my　proximity　upset　her。　Twice　her　hand　twitched　toward　me　and　then　she　would　snatch　it　back。　It　looked　like　she　wanted　to　touch　me　My　breath　sped。　Why　do　you　have　cars　like　that　at　all？　as　we　walked。　An　indulgence；　I　admitted。　If　you　re　looking　for　privacy？　she　asked　We　all　like　to　drive　fast。　Figures；　she　mumbled；　her　tone　sour。　She　didn　t　look　up　to　see　my　answering　grin。
Nuhuh！　I　don　t　believe　this！　it！　Why？　How　the　hell　did　Bella　pull　this　off？　I　don　t　get　Jessica　s　mental　boggling　interrupted　my　thoughts。　She　was　waiting　for　Bella；　taking　refuge　from　the　rain　under　the　edge　of　the　cafeteria　s　roof；　with　Bella　s　winter　jacket　over　her　arm。　Her　eyes　were　wide　with　disbelief。　Bella　noticed　her；　too；　in　the　next　moment。　A　faint　pink　touched　her　cheek　when　Bella　registered　Jessica　s　expression。　The　thoughts　in　Jessica　s　head　were　fairly　clear　on　her　face。　Hey；　Jessica。　Thanks　for　remembering；　Bella　greeted　her。　the　jacket　and　Jessica　handed　it　to　her　wordlessly。　She　reached　out　for　I　should　be　polite　to　Bella　s　friends；　whether　they　were　good　friends　or　not。　Good　morning；　Jessica。　Whoa　Jessica　s　eyes　popped　even　wider。　It　was　strange　and　amusing　and；　honestly；　a　bit　embarrassing　to　realize　how　much　being　near　Bella　had　softened　me。　It　seemed　like　no　one　was　afraid　of　me　any　more。　If　Emmett　found　out　about　this；　he　would　be　laughing　for　the　next　century。　Er　hi；　Jessica　mumbled；　and　her　eyes　flashed　to　Bella　s　face；　full　of　significance。　I　guess　I　ll　see　you　in　Trig。　You　are　so　going　to　spill。　I　m　not　taking　no　for　an　answer。　have　details！　Edward　freaking　CULLEN！！　Life　is　so　unfair。　Bella　s　mouth　twitched。　Yeah；　I　ll　see　you　then。　Details。　I　have　to　Jessica　s　thoughts　ran　wild　as　she　hurried　to　her　first　class；　peeking　back　at　us　now　and　then。　The　whole　story。　I　m　not　accepting　anything　less。　Did　they　plan　to　meet　up　last　night？　Are　they　dating？　How　long？　How　could　she　keep　this　a　secret？　Why　would　she　want　to？　It　can　t　be　a　casual　thing　she　has　to　be　seriously　into　him。　Is　there　any　other　option？　I　will　find　out。　I　can　t　stand　not　knowing。　I　wonder　if　she　s　made　out　with　him？　Oh；　swoon　Jessica　s　thoughts　were　suddenly　disjointed；　and　she　let　wordless　fantasies　swirl　through　her　head。　I　winced　at　her　speculations；　and　not　just　because　she　d　replaced　Bella　with　herself　in　the　mental　pictures。　It　couldn　t　be　like　that。　And　yet　I　I　wanted　How　many　wrong　ways　would　I　want　I　resisted　making　the　admission；　even　to　myself。　Bella　in？　Which　one　would　end　up　killing　her？　I　shook　my　head；　and　tried　to　lighten　up。　What　are　you　going　to　tell　her？　I　asked　Bella。　Hey！　she　whispered　fiercely。　I　can　t。　I　thought　you　couldn　t　read　my　mind！　Ah　we　I　stared　at　her；　surprised；　trying　to　make　sense　of　her　words。
must　have　been　thinking　the　same　thing　at　the　same　time。　Hmm　I　rather　liked　that。　However；　I　told　her；　I　can　read　hers　she　ll　be　waiting　to　ambush　you　in　class。　Bella　groaned；　and　then　let　the　jacket　slide　off　her　shoulders。　I　didn　t　realize　that　she　was　giving　it　back　at　first　I　wouldn　t　have　asked　for　it；　I　would　rather　she　kept　it　a　token　so　I　was　too　slow　to　offer　her　my　help。　She　handed　me　the　jacket；　and　put　her　arms　through　her　own；　without　looking　up　to　see　that　my　hands　were　extended　to　assist。　I　frowned　at　that；　and　then　controlled　my　expression　before　she　noticed　it。　So；　what　are　you　going　to　tell　her？　I　pressed。　A　little　help？　What　does　she　want　to　know？　I　wanted　to　hear　what　she　was　thinking　without　a　I　smiled；　and　shook　my　head。　prompt。　That　s　not　fair。　Her　eyes　tightened。　No；　you　not　sharing　what　you　know　now　that　s　unfair。　Right　she　didn　t　like　double　standards。　We　got　to　the　door　of　her　class　where　I　would　have　to　leave　her；　I　wondered　idly　if　Ms。　Cope　would　be　more　acmodating　about　a　switch　in　the　schedule　of　my　English　class　I　made　myself　focus。　I　could　be　fair。　She　wants　to　know　if　we　re　secretly　dating；　I　said　slowly。　know　how　you　feel　about　me。　Her　eyes　were　wide　not　startled；　but　ingenious　now。　readable。　She　was　playing　innocent。　Yikes；　she　murmured。　What　should　I　say？　I　pondered　how　And　she　wants　to　They　were　open　to　me；　Hmmm。　She　always　tried　to　make　me　give　away　more　than　she　did。　to　respond。　A　wayward　strand　of　her　hair；　slightly　damp　from　the　fog；　draped　across　her　shoulder　and　curled　around　where　her　collar　bone　was　hidden　by　the　ridiculous　sweater。　It　drew　my　eyes　pulled　them　across　the　other　hidden　lines　I　reached　for　it　carefully；　not　touching　her　skin　the　morning　was　chill　enough　without　my　touch　and　twisted　it　back　into　place　in　her　untidy　bun　so　that　it　wouldn　t　distract　me　again。　I　remembered　when　Mike　Newton　had　touched　her　hair；　and　my　jaw　flexed　at　the　memory。　She　had　flinched　away　from　him　then。　Her　reaction　now　was　nothing　the　same；　instead；