《2 new+moon新月》第110章

It　was　quiet　then；　except　for　the　gentle　thrum　of　the　engine。　I　must　have　fallen　asleep；　because　it　seemed　
like　seconds　later　when　the　door　opened　and　Edward　was　carrying　me　from　the　car。　My　eyes　wouldn"t　
open。　At　first　I　thought　we　were　still　at　the　airport。　
And　then　I　heard　Charlie。　
〃Bella！〃　he　shouted　from　some　distance。　
〃Charlie；〃　I　mumbled；　trying　to　shake　off　the　stupor。　
〃Shh；〃　Edward　whispered。　〃It"s　okay；　you"re　home　and　safe。　Just　sleep。〃　
〃I　can"t　believe　you　have　the　nerve　to　show　your　face　here。〃　Charlie　bellowed　at　Edward；　his　voice　much　
closer　now。　
〃Stop　it；　Dad；〃　I　groaned。　He　didn"t　hear　me。　
〃What"s　wrong　with　her？〃　Charlie　demanded。　
〃She"s　just　very　tired；　Charlie；〃　Edward　assured　him　quietly。　〃Please　let　her　rest。〃　
〃Don"t　tell　me　what　to　do！〃　Charlie　yelled。　〃Give　her　to　me。　Get　your　hands　off　her！〃　
Edward　tried　to　pass　me　to　Charlie；　but　I　clung　to　him　with　locked；　tenacious　fingers。　I　could　feel　my　dad　
yanking　on　my　arm。　
〃Cut　it　out；　Dad；〃　I　said　with　more　volume。　I　managed　to　drag　my　lids　back　to　stare　at　Charlie　with　bleary　
eyes。　〃Be　mad　at　me。〃　
We　were　in　front　of　my　house。　The　front　door　was　standing　open。　The　cloud　cover　overhead　was　too　
thick　to　guess　at　a　time　of　day。　
〃You　bet　I　will　be；〃　Charlie　promised。　〃Get　inside。〃　i"〃Kay。　Let　me　down；〃　I　sighed。　
Edward　set　me　on　my　feet。　I　could　see　that　I　was　upright；　but　I　couldn"t　feel　my　legs。　I　trudged　forward　
anyway；　until　the　sidewalk　swirled　up　toward　my　face。　Edward"s　arms　caught　me　before　I　hit　the　
concrete。　
〃Just　let　me　get　her　upstairs；〃　Edward　said。　〃Then　I"ll　leave。〃　
〃No；〃　I　cried；　panicking。　I　hadn"t　got　my　answers　yet。　He　had　to　stay　for　at　least　that　much；　didn"t　he？　
〃I　won"t　be　far；〃　Edward　promised；　whispering　so　low　in　my　ear　that　Charlie　didn"t　have　a　hope　of　
hearing。　
I　didn"t　hear　Charlie　answer；　but　Edward　headed　into　the　house。　My　open　eyes　only　made　it　till　the　stairs。　
The　last　thing　I　felt　was　Edward"s　cool　hands　prying　my　fingers　loose　from　his　shirt。　
23。　THE　TRUTH　
I　HAD　THE　SENSE　THAT　I"D　BEEN　ASLEEP　FOR　A　VERY　long　time—my　body　was　stiff；　like　I　
hadn"t　moved　once　through　all　that　time；　either。　My　mind　was　dazed　and　slow；　strange；　colorful　
dreams—dreams　and　nightmares—swirled　dizzily　around　the　inside　of　my　head。　They　were　so　vivid。　The　
horrible　and　the　heavenly；　all　mixed　together　into　a　bizarre　jumble。　There　was　sharp　impatience　and　fear；　
both　part　of　that　frustrating　dream　where　your　feet　can"t　move　fast　enough…　And　there　were　plenty　of　
monsters；　redeyed　fiends　that　were　all　the　more　ghastly　for　their　genteel　civility。　The　dream　was　still　
strong—I　could　even　remember　the　names。　But　the　strongest；　clearest　part　of　the　dream　was　not　the　
horror。　It　was　the　angel　that　was　most　clear。　
It　was　hard　to　let　him　go　and　wake　up。　This　dream　did　not　want　to　be　shoved　away　into　the　vault　of　
dreams　I　refused　to　revisit。　I　struggled　with　it　as　my　mind　became　more　alert；　focusing　on　reality。　I　
couldn"t　remember　what　day　of　the　week　it　was；　but　I　was　sure　Jacob　or　school　or　work　or　something　
was　waiting　for　me。　I　inhaled　deeply；　wondering　how　to　face　another　day。　
Something　cold　touched　my　forehead　with　the　softest　pressure。　
I　squeezed　my　eyes　more　tightly　shut。　I　was　still　dreaming；　it　seemed；　and　it　felt　abnormally　real。　I　was　so　
close　to　waking…　any　second　now；　and　it　would　be　gone。　
But　I　realized　that　it　felt　too　real；　too　real　to　be　good　for　me。　The　stone　arms　I　imagined　wrapped　around　
me　were　far　too　substantial。　If　I　let　this　go　any　further；　I"d　be　sorry　for　it　later。　With　a　resigned　sigh；　I　
wrenched　back　my　eyelids　to　dispel　the　illusion。　
〃Oh！〃　I　gasped；　and　threw　my　fists　over　my　eyes。　
Well；　clearly；　I"d　gone　too　far；　it　must　have　been　a　mistake　to　let　my　imagination　get　so　out　of　hand。　
Okay；　so　〃let〃　was　the　wrong　word。　I"d　forced　it　to　get　out　of　hand—pretty　much　stalked　my　
hallucinations—and　now　my　mind　had　snapped。　
It　took　less　than　half　a　second　for　me　to　realize　that；　as　long　as　I　was　truly　insane　now；　I　might　as　well　
enjoy　the　delusions　while　they　were　pleasant。　
I　opened　my　eyes　again—and　Edward　was　still　there；　his　perfect　face　just　inches　away　from　mine。　
〃Did　I　frighten　you？〃　His　low　voice　was　anxious。　This　was　very　good；　as　delusions　went。　The　face；　the　
voice；　the　scent；　everything—it　was　so　much　better　than　drowning。　The　beautiful　figment　of　my　
imagination　watched　my　changing　expressions；　with　alarm。　His　irises　were　pitchblack；　with　bruiselike　
shadows　under　them。　This　surprised　me；　my　hallucinatory　Edwards　were　usually　better　fed。　
I　blinked　twice；　desperately　trying　to　remember　the　last　thing　that　I　was　sure　was　real。　Alice　was　part　of　
my　dream；　and　I　wondered　if　she　had　really　e　back　at　all；　or　if　that　was　just　the　preamble。　I　thought　
she"d　returned　the　day　I"d　nearly　drowned…　
〃Oh；　crap〃　I　croaked。　My　throat　was　thick　with　sleeping。　
〃What"s　wrong；　Bella？〃　
I　frowned　at　him　unhappily。　His　face　was　even　more　anxious　than　before。　
〃I"m　dead；　right？〃　I　moaned。　〃I　did　drown。　Crap；　crap；　crap！　This　is　gonna　kill　Charlie。〃　
Edward　frowned；　too。　〃You"re　not　dead。〃　
〃Then　why　am　I　not　waking　up？〃　I　challenged；　raising　my　eyebrows。　
〃You　are　awake；　Bella。〃　
I　shook　my　head。　〃Sure；　sure。　That"s　what　you　want　me　to　think。　And　then　it　will　be　worse　when　I　do　
wake　up。　If　I　wake　up；　which　I　won"t；　because　I"m　dead。　This　is　awful。　Poor　Charlie。　And　Renee　and　
Jake…〃　I　trailed　off　in　horror　at　what　I　had　done。　
〃I　can　see　where　you　might　confuse　me　with　a　nightmare。〃　His　shortlived　smile　was　grim。　〃But　I　can"t　
imagine　what　you　could　have　done　to　wind　up　in　hell。　Did　you　mit　many　murders　while　I　was　away？〃　
I　grimaced。　〃Obviously　not。　If　I　was　in　hell；　you　wouldn"t　be　with　me。〃　
He　sighed。　
My　head　was　getting　clearer。　My　eyes　flickered　away　from　his　face—unwillingly—for　one　second；　to　the　
dark；　open　window；　and　then　back　to　him。　I　started　to　remember　details…　and　I　felt　a　faint；　unfamiliar　
blush　warm　the　skin　over　my　cheekbones　as　I　slowly　realized　that　Edward　was　really；　truly　here　with　me；　
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