《安妮日记》第79章

crisscross　through　my　mind　like　mul…　ticolored　threads　in　a　dress。　myron　and　phidias　are　also　urgently　in　need　of　attention；　or　else　ill　forget　entirely　how　they　fit　into　the　picture。　the　same　applies；　for　example；　to　the　seven　years　war　and　the　nine　years　war。　now　im　getting　everything　all　mixed　up。　well；　what　can　you　do　with　a　memory　like　mine！　just　imagine　how　forgetful　ill　be　when　im　eighty！
oh；　one　more　thing。　the　bible。　how　long　is　it　going　to　take　before　i　e　to　the　story　of　the　bathing　susanna？　and　what　do　they　mean　by　sodom　and　gomorrah？　oh；
theres　still　so　much　to　find　out　and　learn。　and　in　the　meantime；　ive　left　charlotte　of　the　palatine　in　the　lurch。
you　can　see；　cant　you；　kitty；　that　im　full　to　bursting？
and　now　something　else。　youve　known　for　a　long　time　that　my　greatest　wish　is　to　be　a　journalist；　and　later　on；　a　famous　writer。　well　have　to　wait　and　see　if　these　grand　illusions　（or　delusions！）　will　ever　e　true；　but　up　to　now　ive　had　no　lack　of　topics。
in　any　case；　after　the　war　id　like　to　publish　a　book　called　the　secret　annex。　it　remains　to　be　seen　whether　ill　succeed；　but　my　diary　can　serve　as　the　basis。
i　also　need　to　finish　〃cadys　life。〃　ive　thought　up　the　rest　of　the　plot。　after　being　cured　in　the　sanatorium；　cady　goes　back　home　and　continues　writing　to　hans。　its　1941；　and　it　doesnt　take　her　long　to　discover　hanss　nazi　sympathies；　and　since　cady　is　deeply　concerned　with　the　plight　of　the　jews　and　of　her　friend　marianne；　they　begin　drifting　apart。　they　meet　and　get　back　together；　but　break　up　when　hans　takes　up　with　another　girl。　cady　is　shattered；　and　because　she　wants　to　have　a　good　job；　she　studies　nursing。　after　graduation　she　accepts　a　position；　at　the　urging　of　her　fathers　friends；　as　a　nurse　in　a　tb　sanatorium　in　switzerland。　during　her　first　vacation　she　goes　to　lake　o；　where　she　runs　into　hans。　he　tells　her　that　two　years　earlier　hed　married　cadys　successor；　but　that　his　wife　took　her　life　in　a　fit　of　depression。
now　that　hes　seen　his　little　cady　again；　he　realizes　how　much　he　loves　her；　and　once　more　asks　for　her　hand　in　marriage。　cady　refuses；　even　though；　in　spite　of　herself；　she　loves　him　as　much　as　ever。　but　her　pride　holds　her　back。　hans　goes　away；　and　years　later　cady　learns　that　hes　wound　up　in　england；　where　hes　struggling　with　ill　health。
when　shes　twenty…seven；　cady　marries　a　well…to…do　man　from　the　country；　named　simon。　she　grows　to　love　him；　but　not　as　much　as　hans。　she　has　two　daughters　and　a　son；　lthan；　judith　and　nico。　she　and　simon　are　happy　together；　but　hans　is　always　in　the　back　of　her　mind　until　one　night　she　dreams　of　him　and　says　farewell。
。　。　。
its　not　sentimental　nonsense：　its　based　on　the　story　of　fathers　life。
yours；　anne　
m。　frank
saturday；　may　13；　1944
my　dearest　kitty；
yesterday　was　fathers　birthday；　father　and　mothers　nineteenth　wedding　anniversary；　a　day　without　the　cleaning　lady。　。　。　and　the　sun　was　shining　as　its　never　shone　before　in　1944。　our　chestnut　tree　is　in　full　bloom。　its　covered　with　leaves　and　is　even　more　beautiful　than　last　year。
father　received　a　biography　of　linnaeus　from　mr。　kleiman；　a　book　on　nature　from　mr。
kugler；　the　canals　of　amsterdam　from　dussel；　a　huge　box　from　the　van　daans　（wrapped　so　beautifully　it　might　have　been　done　by　a　professional）；　containing　three　eggs；　a　bottle　of　beer；　a　jar　of　yogurt　and　a　green　tie。　it　made　our　jar　of　molasses　seem　rather　paltry。　my　roses　smelled　wonderful　pared　to　miep　and　beps　red　carnations。　he　was　thoroughly　spoiled。　fifty　petits　fours　arrived　from　siemons　bakery；　delicious！　father　also　treated　us　to　spice　cake；　the　men　to　beer　and　the　ladies　to　yogurt。　everything　was　scrumptious！
yours；　anne　
m。　frank
tuesday；　may　16；　1944
my　dearest　kitty；　just　for　a　change　（since　we　havent　had　one　of　these　in　so　long）　ill　recount　a　little　discussion　between　mr。　and　mrs。　van　d。　last　night：
mrs。　van　d。：　〃the　germans　have　had　plenty　of　time　to　fortify　the　atlantic　wall；　and　theyll　certainly　do　everything　within　their　power　to　hold　back　the　british。　its　amazing　how　strong　the　germans　are！”
mr。　van　d。：　〃oh；　yes；　amazing。
mrs。　van　d。：　〃it　is！”
mr。　van　d。：　〃they　are　so　strong　theyre　bound　to　win　the　war　in　the　end；　is　that　what　you　mean？”
mrs。　van　d。：　〃they　might。　im　not　convinced　that　they　wont。”
mr。　van　d。：　〃i　wont　even　answer　that。”
mrs。　van　d。：　〃you　always　wind　up　answering。　you　let　yourself　get　carried　away；　every　single　time。〃
mr。　van　d。：　〃no；　i　dont。　i　always　keep　my　answers　to　the　bare　minimum。”
mrs。　van　d。：　〃but　you　always　do　have　an　answer　and　you　always　have　to　be　right！
your　predictions　hardly　ever　e　true；　you　know！”
mr。　van　d。：　〃so　far　they　have。”
mrs。　van　d。：　〃no　they　havent。　you　said　the　invasion　was　going　to　start　last　year；　the　finns　were　supposed　to　have　been　out　of　the　war　by　now；　the　italian　campaign　ought　to　have　been　over　by　last　winter；　and　the　russians　should　already　have　captured　lemberg。　oh　no；　i　dont　set　much　store　by　your　predictions。”
mr。　van　d。　（leaping　to　his　feet）：　〃why　dont　you　shut　your　trap　for　a　change？　ill　show　you　whos　right；　someday　youll　get　tired　of　needling　me。　i　cant　stand　your　bellyaching　a　minute　longer。　just　wait；　one　day　ill　make　you　eat　your　words！〃　（end　of　act　one。）
actually；　i　couldnt　help　giggling。　mother　couldnt　either；　and　even　peter　was　biting　his　lips　to　keep　from　laughing。　oh；　those　stupid　grown…ups。　they　need　to　learn　a　few　things　first　before　they　start　making　so　many　remarks　about　the　younger　generation！
since　friday　weve　been　keeping　the　windows　open　again　at　night。
yours；　anne　
m。　frank
what　our　annex　family　is　interested　in　（a　systematic　survey　of　courses　and　readina　matter）
mr。　van　daan。　no　courses；　looks　up　many　things　in　knaurs　encyclopedia　and　lexicon；
likes　to　read　detective　stories；　medical　books　and　love　stories；　exciting　or　trivial。
mrs。　van　daan。　a　correspondence　course　in　english；　likes　to　read　biographical　novels　and　occasionally　other　kinds　of　novels。
mr。　frank。　is　learning　english　（dickens！）　and　a　bit　of　latin；　never　reads　novels；　but　likes　serious；　rather　dry　descriptions　of　people　and　places。
mrs。　frank。　a　correspon